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So, first, let me introduce myself to anyone who hasn’t spoken to me or doesn’t know me. I’m Serenity, I’m British, and I’ve been here since 2012.

In January 2020, I took a fall and hit my head. I got up and shrugged it off and then a few days later went to see a doctor about a constant migraine. The symptoms became steadily worse, resulting in brief bouts of short term memory loss. I was diagnosed with post-concussion syndrome and while I can say that I’m now fine, I was unable to complete my final year of university.

I was able to resit and am now thoroughly into my final year. Unfortunately, because I was not a full time student after January, SFE (Student Finance England) are maintaining I was overpaid, and in order to pay rent, I was forced to take out a hardship loan with the university - a loan I’m now unable to pay back, as my SFE loan isn’t even enough to cover my rent and utilities until summer. I’m now receiving letters from my university, saying that I will not be able to graduate this summer unless I pay off the loan (which is £230 in total). I’m currently unemployed and due to alternative health issues, with the current pandemic and lockdown rules, I’m not able to seek employment as an immediate option.

Let me be clear, I’m not asking for anyone to just give me money. Instead, I’m asking that you commission me. If you’re financially able to, pay me for a service. Buy me a coffee, and you can automatically request a graphic or fanfiction. I can make a graphic of any character from any fandom that I’m familiar with, and I’ll write fanfiction for Destiel only. Alternatively, if you’d like to tip me because you’ve previously enjoyed my content, feel free to do that too!

£3 GBP (approx $4) will get you a request for a graphic or fanfiction. Did you ever want to see an Eileen graphic with that one song but nobody has made it? Or maybe you want bakery meetcute Destiel #10478? You’re just a coffee away!

£10 GBP (approx $13), I will provide a short photoshop tutorial on one either a graphic request or one of my previous graphics, and provide the resources used.

@spnhiatuscreations | Week Seven ↳ Favorite Relashionship ⤑ Dean and Castiel

Right in front of me Talk some sense to me

I remember… thinking, uh, I could never go on a quest like that. Because I’m not clean. I mean, I was just a little kid. You think… maybe I knew? I mean, deep down, that I had… demon blood in me, and about the evil of it, and that I'm— wasn’t pure?

A cycle between “oh god, he’s dead and I didn’t tell him” and “thank god, he’s alive - I can tell him later.”

He’s stared at Castiel’s lifeless body more than his fair share of times, and felt the weight of his own guilt suffocating him. 

He watched Castiel drown. 

Oh god, he’s dead and I didn’t tell him. 

But he’d come back, memories gone. 

Thank god, he’s alive - I can tell him later. 

Sacrificed himself for Sam. 

Oh god, he’s dead and I didn’t tell him.

Woke up - different.

Thank god, he’s alive - I can tell him later.

Stabbed through the heart - he didn’t reach him in time.

Oh god, he’s dead and I didn’t tell him.

Brought back to life, still human. 

Thank god, he’s alive - I can tell him later. 

Stabbed again, by the devil himself. 

Oh god, he’s dead and I didn’t tell him.

Back again, a miracle that shouldn’t have happened. 

Thank god, he’s alive - I can tell him later.

“He’s dead, sort of.” Jack says, holding up the flask. 

Oh god, he’s dead and I didn’t tell him.

The Grace brings him back. 

Thank god, he’s alive -

“You’re an idiot, by the way.” Dean tells him, after breathing again.  

I’m still trying to hold onto that.