Sparkling Sugar

I went to a very nice restaurant with my current SD last night. The night was going par for the course. Ordering lots of food, but just taking a few bites of everything, drinks flowing, me laughing at his stupid jokes. We are leaving the restaurant, it is pretty crowded, we walked by the bar and who is sitting at the bar.... my current vanilla boo with his friend. I was completely mortified. My current SD is on the more attractive side, he’s in good shape, but he is 55+. I give my vanilla boo a big hug and I’m like “Omg hey! Are you stalking me?” with a cute smile and laugh. He laughs too and keeps looking at my SD who is standing behind me off to the side a bit. The friend senses the awkwardness and goes, hi I’m ___ nice to meet you. I just go nice to meet you too and don’t introduce myself because my vanilla boo knows me by my real name and my SD by a different name. lmao. The friend was very confused. We then exchange pleasantries and said bye. My SD was completely unfazed and just stood off to the side. I played the entire thing off totally fine. But on the inside, I was freaking out. It is too soon to say whether or not my vanilla guy was completely weirded out or not. We shall see. 

First off: I need to take a break from vanilla dating. I have been dating high caliber men ( CEOs, professional athletes, doctors, etc.) but overall are exhausting to keep putting in effort just for them to be too busy/always traveling. And then I am getting way too caught up in these dudes and romanticizing them.

Second: Focus on my health. I have been eating whatever I want which is usually cheeseburgers and french fries. I also have not worked out in so long. I just feel better when I work out consistently.