worse than you’d think.

pepper + tony scene redraw (but furry!)

making proper reference sheets to post soon! I have furry au designs planned for other mcu characters, but pepperony are my favs ❤️💛

(theyre both lions btw!)

Pepper Potts one shot

Summary: Pepper wanted Tony to rest—she told him as much as he drew his final breath. What she didn’t expect was how impossible it would be to live with the silence he left behind.

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It starts with the sound of the wind. Outside the window, the trees shift like they’re reaching for something. Pepper stands for a moment in the doorway to her daughter’s room, watching the pale glow of the nightlight trace soft shadows on the walls. Morgan is tangled in the sheets, a faint frown on her face even in sleep. Always dreaming hard, just like her father.

Down the hall, the house stretches quiet and long around her. Most nights she really tries not to end up in the study, but her feet take her there anyway. She tells herself it's just a habit. It’s not–it’s gravity.

The room still smells like him.

Not in a romantic way–not like cologne or leather or any memory she'd gladly drown in—but in the way metal and heat used to cling to his skin when he came in from the lab, grinning and bleeding from the knuckles, already talking too fast about some breakthrough she didn’t quite understand but loved to hear about anyway.

She should have cleared it out by now. That’s what people do–process, move forward. Donate what they can’t bear to keep. But this house isn't a shrine, its just a place where he lived. 

She opens the cabinet low to the floor and pulls out the box she hasn’t touched since the funeral. It's labeled in his handwriting:

KEEP!

The box is crooked, the cardboard bent with time and carelessness. He must’ve packed it years ago and never thought about it again. That was Tony—set something aside and forget it until it mattered again. And it always did, eventually. Pepper lifts the lid.

There’s no order to it. Just layers of life–a disassembled pair of red tinted sunglasses from the Monaco race. The tiny magnetic chessboard they used to bring on flights. A pack of gum he never opened. The Iron Man press pin he gave her the day after the press conference, when he told the world who he was and handed her a bottle of champagne with no glasses.

Pepper picks up a crumpled note, unfolds it. One of his napkin scribbles. A rough sketch of some suit mechanism she doesn’t understand. Across the bottom, scrawled in blue ink:

Lunch? Or are you pretending to be busy again, Ms. Potts?

She remembers that day. He was three floors down, texting her from the same building instead of walking up the stairs. She’d ignored him, so he sent DUM-E to bring her a smoothie five minutes later. She laughs, short and breathy.

It’s not that she wants him back. That’s too small a phrase for it. She wants him here. She wants the heat of his voice in the next room, the weight of his head on her shoulder when he’s tired but won’t admit it. She wants to hear him swear at the coffee machine and then drink the whole cup anyway. But grief doesn’t give, it only transforms.

She doesn’t cry. Not right now, at least. She’s cried before, in random, private moments when the world didn’t need her to be strong. But tonight it’s not the kind of sadness that overwhelms. It’s the kind that settles. That tucks itself between her ribs and makes a home there.

Pepper pulls out an old photo near the bottom of the box. They’re both in it, arms slung around each other, grinning so widely it’s almost foolish. She’s in one of her early Stark Industries suits—power heels, sharp shoulders, hair pulled tight. He’s in a t-shirt that probably cost more than her car at the time. He looks happy, and so does she. But there’s something behind her eyes that she recognizes now, a kind of bracing.

Even when he was hers, she never stopped preparing for the moment he wouldn’t be. Not because she didn’t trust him—but because the world always seemed to want more of him than it gave back. Pepper had spent years negotiating that balance. First as his assistant, then his partner, then the mother of his child. Tony gave everything he had to everything he loved, and she loved him for it. Even when it meant learning how to live without him before he was gone.

Now, she just has to do it for real.

She sits on the floor and leans back against the bookshelf. The wood is cold through her sweater. She presses the photo to her chest for a second, then sets it beside her knee. The box is still open.

There’s a faded scrap of fabric near the bottom—a fragment from the first prototype of his nanotech suit, soft and silvery. She remembers him showing it off like it was magic. For a man of science, he always believed in wonder. Pepper closes her eyes.

“Sometimes,” she says aloud, “I hate you for leaving.” The silence that answers her is patient. “Not really,” she adds, quieter this time. “But sometimes.”

It’s not a bitter hate, and it’s not sharp. Just an ache that flares up when Morgan asks a question that Pepper doesn’t know how to answer—like why head to go. Like what kind of father only gets to tuck his daughter in for five years.

Pepper had told him it was okay to rest, and she’d really meant it. But resting means someone else has to carry what’s left behind. She does. Every day.

Pepper leans forward, fingertips grazing the rim of the box. She lifts out a strawberry necklace—the one he gifted her after a petty argument, engraved with her initials. It's frailer than she remembers. She wears it sometimes when she’s alone. She hasn’t told anyone that–she might never.

Because no matter what anyone else says, no one knew Tony like she did. Not the press, not the Avengers. Not even Morgan. She hopes that someday her daughter will understand that loving him wasn’t a choice—it was like orbiting a sun. It gave her light, and it also burned. But god, it was beautiful. She runs a thumb over the cool metal.

“Wherever you are,” she whispers, “I hope you’re causing problems.”

The corner of her mouth twitches. She leaves the box open when she finally stands. She doesn’t need to finish sorting it. It’s not about closure. It never was. It’s about holding the pieces long enough to remember that they’re real. That he was real. 

Not just the man in the suit, not just the one who saved the universe–but the man who danced with her barefoot in the kitchen. The man who got sunburned trying to build Morgan a treehouse. The man who once told her he loved her more than physics.

Pepper walks back through the hallway, slower this time. She pauses outside Morgan’s door and listens to the gentle rise and fall of her breathing. And then, quietly, she whispers—almost to herself, almost to him:

“You were always enough.”