hollanov

I never want to come back here again. I fucking hate it here. And they all fucking hate me. I pay for everything. I make sure everyone has clothes they like. I make sure the food is perfect, that Father is buried next to his parents, that the tomb is perfect. And the only fucking word I ever hear is: "I want more, Ilya. I need more, llya. More, more, more." And I have nothing for these people! I give them everything... but I feel fucking empty.

They don't care. They look at me, and they see a bank. Or an enemy. Or...I don't even know what. My brother, he always hated me. And I know why, but... it kills me. And it kills me that he took care of my father, and I didn't. But I couldn't! I wasn't here. I still paid for it all. And he will never forgive me. For any of it. For existing.

And it means...I have no one now. Well, not no one. I have...Svetlana. She loves me. And l love her. But not like...Fuck me. But not like I love you...That's the worst fucking part of all of this is...that all I want is you. It's always you. I'm so in love with you, and I don't know what to do about it.

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after dick and kisses

PLEASE IMAGINE

Ilya: (speaking to Shane very loudly about a player on the other team) Yeah I think his wife is leaving him. He cheated so I don’t feel bad for him.

Shane: oh good for her then.

Ilya: yes good for her. She is way to pretty to be with him anyway

Shane: He’s also not scoring enough points to cheat on anyone. His average goals have been going down drastically in the last few years. He really should focus more on that