— Beauty within

I feel like an idiot, i never warned my friends or girlfriend, because it just happened that i got busy, most of my days goes to studying, making dinner and sleeping, in the weekends i spend most my time with family (when i´m not studying) because i moved away from home this year to study on a school in a different town and as the oldest kid in my family (with 6 years apart from my sister) it went kinda hard on mom and dad and i don´t have the heart to not spend time with them.

I´m four months into my school year and i´ve had two mental breakdowns, cried over one grade, had meetings with the advisor and social services. I had so heavy nightmares about some schoolwork that my history teacher got worried about me and i cried in front over my roommate (i never cry in front of people), which had her worry about me.

Although i stressed a lot i made a lot of friends and my parents are supporting me a lot which makes all the stress worth it. But the following semester is gonna be just as hard, 6 months with more stress and i can´t allow myself to not focus on school because i want all my stress to be worth it.

Most of all i´m sorry to CL because she deserves better than me and i´m sorry to everyone who worried about me. If you want to talk to me please message me about it and i´ll send you the aim i have on my phone, i can´t promise it´s always easy to reach me, but at least you´ll get a hello and a hug once in a while.