go away

I have never said this publicly until now, but… I would like to thank my ex for leaving me. Yes, it was the worst that has happened to me and the pain was unbearable. You all saw how broken I was for two years. But thanks to her walking away from my life, I got the chance to meet my soulmate. People used to tell me things happen for a reason, that maybe my ex wasn’t the one, that maybe she went away because I was meant to find someone better. And that used to make me mad because I didn’t want it to be true, I didn’t want to be with anybody else. I closed my heart, or so I thought. And when I less expected it, this wonderful woman stepped into my life and she changed everything. I have never felt so lucky, so blessed, so loved, so safe. I am so proud to call her mine. She makes me feel at home. She makes me immensely happy. She calms my storms and takes my worries away. She’s got the most beautiful eyes I’ve ever seen - and they speak to me without words. I can see the love in her eyes. I can hear it in her voice. A voice I want to hear every single day for the rest of my life. She’s so caring, understanding, supportive, intelligent, romantic and unique. She’s got such a big and pure heart, such a beautiful and benevolent soul and such a fascinating mind. She makes me feel that all the bad things I’ve gone through have finally paid off. We have such a strong, unreal connection and I feel like I’ve known her forever. She’s the person I waited for my whole life. She’s all I ever dreamed of, and more. She’s the best that has ever happened to me and I love her more than anything. I dream of the day we’ll live together and turn a house into our home. I dream of all the little, daily things we’ll do together. I dream of the day we’ll say “I do”. I want to share everything with her. I want her to be the first I see when I open my eyes in the morning, and the last at night right before falling asleep with a smile on my face. I no longer feel the need to avoid reality or live in the past. The future doesn’t feel hopeless and dark anymore. I begin to see the beauty in things again, positivity is growing back inside of me. I speak about her like she’s gotten into my soul and painted it with colors. And that’s how it feels like. She has changed my life and continues to do so, every second we spend together. I look forward to a new day, not wanting the current day to end. The sound of her voice, the sound of her laughter, the way her eyes shine when she thinks of something she’s passionate about, that wonderful smile that never fails to amaze me… All the cute face expressions she does, not aware of how adorable she looks and all the warm feelings she causes in my chest. She’s a wonderful, special, brave, strong, beautiful human being and I will always feel incredibly honored to have her in my life. I will never know what I did right in life to deserve her, but I sure will devote my life to become a better person and I will take care of that pure heart. I will make sure to always show her how much she means to me. Oh, I’ve never been so in love. I’ve never felt so happy. So, yes, I would like to thank my ex for leaving me, despite the pain it caused me because I would gladly go through that hell all over again, if it meant finding my soulmate in the end.

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