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recently have stopped smoking weed (i think im about 2 weeks sober) so ive been trying not to be super depressed and despair but i will say the withdrawal symptoms have been hell. ive been smoking almost every day for 15 years and have been sick of the grip it has on me .-. im hoping to stay sober for the rest of my life, or at least find a happy medium where i feel like i dont have to depend on it. my mind is already becoming more clear, like i can really feel the brain fog disappearing which is nice and i definitely feel less anxious so far but i am definitely a lot more irritable and grumpy and ive been pretty snappy at people

okay to come back to this my attitude has done a complete flip. i had to do a lot of prep work with my doctor but im on two antidepressants and its changed my life even in a month may-june (esp june) has been the hardest month of my life i think i cried almost every day, i hated myself i hated my job and was really close to quitting i was just extremely unhappy and obviously not well.