aus · pi · cious

(( just kidding i really miss some of you & drop some love in my inbox if ya want to follow mun on twit or somethin like that. it’d mean a lot to me that you still want to keep in touch tbh. ))

i wish you all luck on the real because i know sometimes rp can really help us in times of need. even though no one’s gonna see this & i’ll probably end up running back here whenever i receive a message, i hope rp improves your lives rather than initiate wasted time since i, personally, have wasted a lot of time on tumblr/msn/aim/kkt and all that good stuff that always seems to push you further and further into the hell hole that this whole community has the potential to cause. 

nonetheless, i’ve made a lot of close-knit friends that i still keep in touch with and i’ve experienced a lot of crazy shit that’s made me into the person i am today. i’ve also become a better writer and have gained some fucking patience while coding LMAO. and to this day, i still find it insane how people you don’t know behind a laptop screen can make you feel so many dreaded emotions and can make you sit down and write almost a fucking essay like i’m doing right now. 

i stuck around (on & off) since april 2012 and can i just say-- the life i’ve created through all the characters i’ve portrayed has been both the worst and best thing i could’ve ever done to myself. leaning more towards the worst side, but i believe that the 10 month break i’ve taken away from the craziness has made me proud of myself. like honest to god, i wish i left years ago, but there was always something or someone that stopped me, but i know better now that when i feel like i need to get out of a situation, i gotta get the fuck out LMAO. let me tell ya, the things i’ve done in these TEN months without spending hours here has made me feel so damn amazing. i’ve accomplished pretty much all i wanted to accomplish in just a short period of time. 

so if you ever find yourself not being able to go a day without logging into your 500 accounts on tumblr that we know everyone has, please take some time to do something you’ve always wanted to do and work your ass off because there is so much more than cutting gifs into 100x100 pixels or getting your millions of replies done on time when you don’t really wanna do ‘em. all in all i just want to say: if you manage your way out of rp, stay out. best decision you’ll ever make.