There are so many small things you will stop doing and maybe never do again when you lose someone you love and many of them you won't even realize you've abandoned because they do not seem connected. Your routine just stops and not all of the pieces come back together. It's not as if I have no need for the computer but maybe more than that I had a need for him to have been in that chair behind mine waiting for me to finish and falling asleep to the clicks of my mouse. To turn off the monitor and walk through the doorframe alone in the dark would be to suffer the loss of you. I did not move on but I moved my computer to another room.














