op has a sneezing fetish

i am worried about ever finding a partner because of this fetish. I can’t get off without it to be honest with you. Like yes things outside of sneezing excite me but it can rarely ever make me cum….

How on earth can I find a partner who shares this with me. I don’t want to have a partner and we both have unfulfilling sex lives. I don’t wanna have sex unless sneezing is involved. Cuz I know I won’t cum and will get bored without it. I have a fwb and as hot as they are and as good as they are at touching and kissing me, I just can’t help getting bored because sneezing isn’t involved. with my ex partner, I would genuinely have to think so hard about sneezing while they fucked me just so that I could cum. They knew about the fetish and were very understanding and supportive. Sometimes I would even put one earbud in my ear (with their permission ofc) so I can listen to snz wavs and get pushed over the edge. And at that point it takes me out of the moment between us, cuz I’m in my own world in my head just Thinking about sneezing.

so I wonder how likely it is to find a partner that is okay with indulging in it or better yet enjoys it themself. I would really love to be with a fellow sneeze fucker. I’m a very weird person anyways, sneezing fetish aside. I just get so scared that I’m so bizarre in so many ways that I’ll never find someone. I would rather jack off alone to sneezing for the rest of my life than feel obligated to perform sexual acts that don’t involve my fetish. I know that sounds bad but it’s the truth. It just sucks like I love being a snzfucker but I hate that it’s like 100% of my sexuality and that I can’t get off without it.

Dude I’m so pissed at Covid and how it’s changed how I view illness and interact with this fetish of mine. Covid genuinely scares the shit out of me. I desperately want a head cold but I’m not willing to like…. Do things that would lead me to getting sick cuz what if I get the goddamn plague instead of just a cute little cold. And now isolating when you feel any symptoms of anything is a thing. I miss when you could have a cold and casually hang around other people and go about ur day cuz no one cared that much— it’s just a cold. But now Covid has ruined that!

it makes me so fucking frustrated I haven’t properly had a sneezy cold in I don’t know how long!!!! I had a very mild cold in like may or april but it was literally gone after one day!!!! ONE DAY! I MISS HAVING A COLD!!!!!!! I WANT TO CATCH A COLD!!!!!!

also because of Covid I can’t enjoy observing as much as I once did cuz now my first thought when someone is sickly is “Jesus Christ what if it’s Covid? I have to get out of here and away from them”.