i come here occasionally to use this as a form of public journal. to share things about myself so that some day, some people who know/knew me read this and go “so that’s what was going on”. however, my entries are months, sometimes years apart. my only explanation to that is that i only write here when i yearn. when i miss a life i used to live. when things were a lot simpler. times of bliss, joy, and at the time, love.
i do hate to admit it. but i often find myself reminiscing that life quite often. more so around the times when the weather is cold and the skies are clean. the cool wind that wraps you in it’s embrace reminds me of those loving days. instead now, i walk alone when the weather feels like that. i did learn how to find comfort in the solitude, at the same time, i found yearning. ying and yang to it all i suppose.
i haven’t been in a relationship in over 5-6 years or so? last one i had left such a sour taste in my mouth that i refused to bond emotionally with anyone for a long ass period of time. honestly, my patience is so beyond thin, that if i do go back out there in the relationship game, my next parter better be fucking worth it. or else i’m deadass shaving my head and becoming a monk in the mountains of some remote location.
here’s to overcoming adversity, yearning, and most of all. making it big. or maybe you can just ruin my life and reach out to me again. either we way, we ball.
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