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P.S. to all my friends: You’ll each be getting one from me.

When you catch yourself staring at a girl and suddenly realize there’s a reason you’re 20 and you’ve never wanted a boyfriend, and that your 9th grade lesbian gym teacher wasn’t your favorite just because she was funny.

After some time to reflect on your feelings, you take a hard look at your gay self in the mirror. Deep down you know you’re gay but you don’t know “for sure”… aka you haven’t accepted it yet.

after being raised in a hetero-centric society you feel deep senses of shame. So you march your gay ass to the closet to never speak of this again.

You’re pretty sure you are gay but are going to spend the next 10 months quintuple checking on the internet. You watch every coming out video ever made, read every thread, ask strangers questions. Only to realize that, while these resources help, only you can determine your sexuality.

At first your like:

But you’re “a lot gay” so you say goodbye to be comfort of you heterosexual lifestyle; scary, but you know it’s for the best and is what will make you happy.

So now you know you’re gay, but no one else does. Despite how comfortable you feel with your orientation in your mind, it’s still incredibly hard to come out. So you sit back hoping that you emanate enough lesbianess that other gays will simply flock to you.

You muster up the courage to tell one person. Your heart literally feels like it’s in your throat and you’re sweating under your hoodie. And the person is like “oh okay!” Which is an underwhelming reaction for all the stress you put yourself through for that last year. And your like:

In all seriousness, that type of reaction is great and you feel blessed and understand your privilege to have a life in which you can be your true self safely and be supported!

Slowly, you build up more confidence, a process which takes time, and soon your gay af and don’t care who knows it. Sure, you may still have some moments of shame, encounters with homophobes and assholes, and a doubtful Aunt Carol, but then you remember:

hopelessly gifted

The Alvin Ailey American Dance Theater by Andrew Eccles

A look at acclaimed photographer Andrew Eccles’ impressive body of work with The Alvin Ailey American Dance Theater; one of the most powerful dance companies in the world. 

His classically composed, technically flawless style showcases the majesty of the human body in all its glory, capturing the dancers in performance, behind-the-scenes, and in stunning portraits.