lilya

I know you wont see this. but can you stop.. it hurts me so have you in my dreams all the time. Its been years and you still come to live in my dreams. Its so often that I feel like im going into another reality of myself where you are there. I am typing this because I have no one to talk about it too. At least no one who will understand but, this dream was so real and in a few hours of sleep I got. I experienced a beautiful week where you came back. I asked you the questions I have been wanting answered and you gave me those answers. I just want to know if you really think about me that much that I dream about you or is it just me and my internal self conscious that deeply misses you… You held me so close and I felt like that 15 year old girl again. I hate you sometimes because I think that I will forget about you the longer this goes on but no. It is getting worse. Deep down I never felt enough for you and I would voiced that our time together and i was right , i wonder if you are the perfect prince charming with her? It saddens me that I was your trial run to point out ur flaws as you pointed out mine but at the end you perfected urself not to be with me but with someone else, life is unfair