The Snottiest

I’m so fucked up over Oliver Tree passing away yesterday. Been a fan since vine. I loved his fucking music. I really liked his new album even tho I’ve seen people hate on it. RIP…shit breaks my fucking heart man.

Thanks to Virginias bitch ass governor, the store I buy my 7oH from, they won’t be able to sell it after the 1st of July. Thanks, shout out to that old cunt. VA is about to have a higher fentanyl outbreak. I’m not going back on Suboxone. I rather do pressed 30s than go back on fucking suboxone. I’m so fucking mad. I had a GREAT day today with my niece. And now my shit is just fucking ruined. Abigail Spanberger is such a dumb bitch.

So I take magnesium glycinate at night for sleep and last night, I took it with my 7oH and holy shit lmfao. Will be doing that again tonight lmfao

Ya know, I understand that some jobs are shit and they piss you off and it’s a drag knowing you have to go into work. But what we aren’t gonna do is take that shit out of others. It’s our fucking anniversary, stop acting like a fucking dick and all pissy bc you have to go to that dumbass job this evening. You chose to go back there. That mf didn’t get on his knees and beg you to come back. He offered, you took it. And the same shit is happening that made you leave the last time! Keep that shit AT WORK. Don’t bring your negativity around me.

I’m so fucking sad. It’s technically June 13th today, it’s our 4 year anniversary. And I just feel like I’m annoying. He’s packed my bowl for me every day for the last 4 years. The other day, he handed the grinder to me and told me to just keep it over there…maybe it’s bpd, maybe it’s just overthinking, maybe it’s me being hyper aware and thinking “omg this is one of those signs that you don’t notice until it’s too late”. Like I want to fucking SOB. Tbh I feel dizzy and nauseous. My entire body hurts bc I spent 5 nonstop hours drawing and crafting and writing his anniversary gift from me (I hand make all cards I give him). I’m just getting sadder and sadder as the days go on. I’ll prolly never get better lol

Having bpd and past relationship trauma is like, really fucked off.