i hope every cat and dog is warm and dry and knows i love them

i need to start reading textbooks

ukraine and russia need to stop fighting and the us needs to stop being an international asshole to everyone so i can visit russia and go to st petersburg and take the train to moscow and tour both cities and the museums and the nightlife and the people ughhhh

nothing can replicate the smell of the beach or sea. the closest we have is solar tuberose perfumes but literally nothing can capture the smell of salt water and sand baking jn the sun. i dont even know how to describe it. i need to snort a line of sand. same goes for the smell of the bay. it stinks in such a good way like decay and peat and mussels and crabs hiding in muck. nothing will come close to the real scents of nature but man do i wish someone could come up with a perfume that gets close.

im almost 26 which means im going to lose my insurance and not be able to afford any of my meds which means i have to kill myself

darkness and malice creeping into my heart