Last of a Dying Breed

For the first time.

[18] There is no fear in love, but perfect love drives out fear, because fear expects punishment. The person who is afraid has not been made perfect in love.

I need to belong to you.

And I need you to belong to me.

Mutually and conditionally.

As you deserve.

...

Your biggest problem is you think you shouldn't have them."

I feel like I'm climbing a mountain with no gear right now... in the past 2 days I've had a two and a half hour therapy session with my wife and an hour and a half counseling session for myself and holy s*** were they both massively meaningful but so exhausting and my brain was like "damn"... but I'm also starting to put the pieces together and my brain is really like "damn bro... it took you this long?

But I'm also realizing that Beyond abandonment issues and fears and insecurities and a need to have doubtless faith with God, that I definitely have an issue in terms of looking at my past and seeing my lessons learned as failures. Maybe it's something that a lot of men deal with but we have to see failure as experiential learning, and not tag ourselves as losers or guilt ourselves in the process. I guess I'm sharing because I really understand it but now I have to apply it which is the real hard part.