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The Initiation

Bryan sat on the weathered wooden bench, the stiff, brand-new leather of his Dainese suit squeaking slightly as he shifted his weight. To an outsider, he looked like just another young biker taking a break at a forest rest stop. But inside, Bryan felt like he was standing on a podium.

For years, he had begged his older brother, Mark—the guy on the right with the seasoned look and the casual smirk—to let him join the crew. He wanted the roar of the engines, the speed, the freedom. But Mark had always shaken his head.

"You’re too soft, kid," Mark had told him six months ago. "You want to ride with us? You gotta live like us. We don't just burn rubber; we burn tobacco. Hard."

Mark had set a twisted ultimatum, a gatekeeping ritual born of pure malice: You can only ride if you can chain-smoke. Two packs a day, minimum. If you cough, you walk.

Bryan, desperate for approval and blinded by admiration, hadn't seen the trap. He had treated it like an athletic event. He "trained" for it. The first few weeks had been a nauseating nightmare, but Bryan was determined. He pushed through the dizziness, forced his lungs to accept the smoke, and turned a bad habit into a disciplined routine.

Now, sitting in the dappled sunlight, Bryan felt a sense of perverse accomplishment. He wasn't just hitting the two-pack quota; he was crushing it. He had worked his way up to three packs a day. He lit his cigarette with the smooth, practiced motion of a veteran, inhaling deeply without a flinch.

"How’s the lung capacity, little brother?" Mark asked, blowing a cloud of smoke into the spring air.

"Easy," Bryan replied, flicking ash with a confident grin. "I don't even feel it anymore. I could do four packs if I had to."

Bryan didn't realize the terrifying truth behind his words. He didn't notice the slight tremor in his fingers when he went more than twenty minutes without nicotine. He didn't realize that the "relaxing" feeling he got from the cigarette wasn't cool detachment—it was just his body screaming for its fix. He thought he was proving his toughness, but he was actually proving his submission.

Mark watched him from across the table, his eyes narrowing with a dark, schadenfreude-filled satisfaction. He saw the way Bryan immediately reached for his lighter the second the current cigarette burned down to the filter. Mark knew exactly what was happening. He knew Bryan was no longer doing this to join the gang; Bryan was doing this because his brain chemistry had been rewritten. The kid was hooked, deep and permanent.

"Good job, kid," Mark said, a cruel smile playing on his lips. "You're really one of us now. You're never gonna quit."

Slightly behind them, Vince, the third member of their trio, leaned back and watched the spectacle with cold, cynical eyes. He took a slow drag from his own cigarette, not impressed by the kid's naive pride. He knew exactly what three packs a day really bought you. Yeah, keep grinning, rookie, Vince thought, a nasty, internal chuckle bubbling up. Wait until the real fun starts. Pretty soon, you’re gonna have a wicked smoker’s cough rattling your chest. You’re gonna love the new morning routine—hacking up thick, nasty lung butter before you can even say hello. Forget your alarm clock, kid. Waking up choking at 5 a.m., gasping because you can’t get any air—that’s gonna be your new wake-up call.

Bryan beamed, swelling with pride, completely unaware that he had just lost his freedom—and his future health—to the very people who promised to give it to him.

"There you are again, like every night, sitting all alone in your room, scrolling through Tumblr, smoking - no, feeding - and edging. Deep inside you know you shouldn't, but you can't stop yourself. You have no control. Not anymore.

Nothing like some nipple rubs while enjoying a cig.