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hai hai, silly! it's always okay that you're yellowjackets pilled! i hope you enjoy! i'm planning on doing jackie too, tehe. the only agere alphabet i did before now is the barnespaxton one! i imagine this to be pre crash or taking place in a no crash au, but feel free to read as you like! this is a long post so buckle your seatbelts, tehe. cws for regressing while intoxicated (420 mostly, though alcohol is mentioned once).

A  ──  activities. [what are their favorite activities to do while regressed?]

     shauna is very shy about her regression, tending to feel very ashamed of and frustrated by it. she likes to journal while teen regressed, angrily scribbling her thoughts out as she stews in her thoughts, blaring her favorite nirvana and wheezer songs. sometimes she'll just blast whichever is the loudest; a small act of rebellion which pleases a tween/younger teen shauna. when she's regressed smaller, she enjoys reading, proudly showing jackie how many words she knows. she's a pretty independent regressor, preferring to keep her regression private if she can, though when she's puppy regressed, she can get pretty needy and playful! puppy!shauna adores her jackie, loving any activity that allows her to stretch her legs or earn praise from the girl.

B  ──  blankies. [do they have a favorite blanket? what does it look like?]

     shauna doesn't really have a favorite blanket; she's found that her bed's ratty comforter is perfectly good for her. she doesn't much care for a lot of blankets, though her comforter has gotten more than it's fair share of use. she's had it on her bed for years, thus there are a few nameless stains on it, and there always seems to be an abundance of crumbs within its corners. she tends to sprawl across it more than actively wrap herself up in or nest in it, oftentimes staring at her ceiling lost in thought, or smoking a joint or cigarette. there are a few ashy stains and a burn or two on the comforter as a result, but nothing that she can't hide. a regressed!shauna tends to confine herself to her room, so while she doesn't consciously seek comfort from a blanket in her regression, her worn bedcover oftentimes serves as a backdrop for her regression.

C  ──  cuddles. [do they enjoy cuddling? how do they like to cuddle?]

     no! shauna's not big on cuddling, being very moody in her regression. while she secretly enjoys cuddling jackie while regressed, shauna would never admit to this! which means she does not enjoy cuddling at all! she tends to get defensive at the idea, finding the intimacy and vulnerability awkward. the suggestion of cuddles oftentimes makes her feel cornered, leaving her to growl in her puppy regressed state, or tear up angrily. she may lash out or isolate, though if it's late and she and jackie are alone, she won't refuse a cuddle, secretly relishing in the closeness and safety she finds in her best friend. however, it has to be jackie's idea; shauna is far too stubborn to ask for cuddles herself.

D  ──  dinner. [what is their favorite meal to eat for dinner when regressed?]

     shauna likes to avoid others while regressed, especially her parents, so she oftentimes ends up eating more snacks than meals while regressed. she'll oftentimes snack on a few slim jims, and whatever other snacks she's squirreled away after school before anyone else gets home. if she's hungrier, she'll usually drive for fast food, stopping at whatever's closest. she's not too picky, though she enjoys meat.

E  ──  emotions. [do they get emotional when they regress? do any emotions trigger them to regress?]

     yes! shauna tends to regress involuntarily as a result of any big feelings whether positive or negative. while she is typically very emotionally repressed, a regressed!shauna expresses her emotions more outwardly, which is one reason she feels very icky ashamed about her regression. she tends to bottle up her emotions until they explode out of her as she drops hard and sudden. shauna struggles to label her emotions, or even consistently recognize when she's feeling something, thus leading to outbursts of frustration while regressed. much to her chagrin, a small shauna may burst into tears seemingly out of nowhere, thus leading her to act in a destructive manner as a way to take back control. shauna additionally tends to be hypersensitive when regressed; the smallest thing can set her over the edge! this plays a role in her tendency to isolate while regressed; she figures if she's not around others, she can't get hurt, nor can she embarrass herself or be judged or hated for her feelings.

F  ──  food. [what are their favorite foods or snacks to eat when regressed?]

     shauna likes slim jims a lot! she's not the pickiest of regressors; she'll snack on pretty much anything. she has a bit of an oral fixation, preferring chewy, long lasting snacks to more crunchy ones, or those she'd have to eat with a spoon.

G  ──  giggles. [what makes them laugh? what do they find funny?]

     shauna's not a very giggly regressor, oftentimes too moody or self conscious to find anything funny. even when she does, she finds herself too wrapped up inside her head to outwardly laugh, or even chuckle. it's only when she's high and regressed to a more toddler headspace, that she'll let herself laugh outwardly, bursting into fits of happy giggles whenever jackie does something silly or tells her a stupid joke.

H  ──  hugs. [do they like hugging? when do they hug?]

     no! shauna does not like hugs at all. not even from jackie. they make her feel trapped and suffocated, or pitied and looked down upon. she doesn't like having her personal space invaded either; as mentioned previously she will only cuddle with jackie if it's jackie's idea and she has the freedom of choice. hugs feel uncomfortable for shauna, especially since they usually come out of nowhere. she'll holler and hit, should anyone offer her a hug, lashing out due to feeling cornered and babied.

I  ──  imagination. [do they use their imagination a lot when playing?]

     shauna is a very imaginative regressor, though it's not often that she fully plays. she loves reading, immersing herself in fictional worlds, and will secretly write fanfiction of her favorite stories in her journal, especially when she's tween/teen regressed. she'll oftentimes talk to herself while alone and regressed, pretending that she's talking to her favorite characters or even those that she knows in real life. whenever she's regressed around jackie, she loves to tell the girl stories, whether they're entirely fictional or based off of their real life. she likes to tell stories of where they'll be in the future, but she also has a few recurring characters she likes to tell jackie about!

J  ──  jammies. [do they have a pair of pajamas they wear when going to bed? what does it look like?]

     shauna typically wears a worn pair of sweats and an oversized band tee to bed. however, when she's feeling extra small, and missing jackie (she's too stubborn to call her!) she'll wear the matching pajamas that jackie got her; pink and green checked pants and a gauzy white top. while shauna admittedly felt a bit suffocated by the gift, a small shauna relishes in the coziness of the pjs, feeling closer to jackie as she drifts off with her thumb jammed between her lips.

K  ──  kissies. [do they like (platonic) kisses? do they like to give or receive them?]

     shauna will play up her disgust whenever she's given a platonic kiss. she really hates the warm, sticky feeling on her cheek, and always feels awkard having to wait until the other party has turned away before she can wipe her cheek off with a flannel sleeve. when she's on the smaller end of her range, she doesn't mind them, warming at the act of jackie giving her forehead a loving kiss, but she's far too embarrassed and shy to give them back.

L  ──  lullabies. [do they have a favorite lullaby to listen to as they go to sleep?]

     shauna prefers to listen to audiobooks to help her fall asleep while regressed. typically, she'll play one of her favorite records, or use a sound machine, but a smaller shauna prefers stories. she'll borrow cassettes and cds from the library, mumbling something about a younger cousin or babysitting as she checks out books from her childhood on tape.

M  ──  movies. [what is their favorite movie to watch when regressed? what genre is it?]

     shauna's regression is for the most part nontraditional! a regressed!shauna loves to watch scary movies while holed up in her room, on the shitty tv that used to be in the den. she likes scaring herself, and is fascinated by the effects used in horror, rolling her eyes at the crappy "fake blood" of the older ones. she's particularly fond of a nightmare on elm street, owning a copy of it after countless borrows from the library.

N  ──  nicknames. [do they have any preferred nicknames they would want a cg to use?]

     shauna is pretty hesitant about nicknames when she's regressed coming from anyone but jackie. she loves when jackie calls her "shaunie", though she's not big on names that involve pointing out that she's small such as "baby", "little one", and others in that vein. when she's puppy regressed she absolutely loves being called "pup" as well! she also likes being called "bear", oftentimes roaring in response when she's on the smaller side. should anyone but jackie try to call her a nickname or petname, however, she'll get fussy and lash out, once more feeling belittled and made fun of.

O  ──  oops! [do they tend to be clumsy or make a lot of mistakes when regressed?]

     not really! since shauna spends most of her time regressed by herself in her room, opportunity for clumsiness and mistakes doesn't often present itself. as mentioned earlier, shauna also tends to be more of an independent regressor, being perfectly capable of taking care of herself and her needs. she may be a bit clumsy while high and regressed, especially since she tends to slip more easily into puppyspace or a younger headspace, but it's not something that bothers her in such a state. when she's regressed around jackie, she may be clingier if she's high, or smaller, but she generally remains capable of taking care of herself. when she's alone, regression for shauna serves more as an outlet to feel and express her emotions, than to be active or play in a way that could be messy or warrant mistakes.

P  ──  pacifier. [do they like to use pacis? what does their paci look like?]

     no! not at all!! jackie got her a paci, and she cried. she's far too shameful of her regression to use any gear at all, but especially such a childish item. using a pacifier is the ultimate embarrassment for shauna, even though she does have a bit of an oral fixation as mentioned previously. she feels simultaneously too proud and too ashamed to use one, having thrown a violent tantrum when jackie presented her with the item, hitting and shouting as her whole body wracked with sobs. shauna would much rather suck her thumb when she thinks jackie can't see her, than willingly use a pacifier. however, should jackie try and correct this behavior, it will only make shauna shut down, feeling embarrassed and more vulnerable than she'd like to. when she's alone in her room, she'll angrily suck on her thumb and fingers, nibbling at them shyly at first even when she's alone with herself.

Q  ──  quiet time. [do they enjoy quiet activities? what do they like to do during quiet time?]

     yes! shauna most prefers quiet activities when she's regressed, oftentimes finding herself annoyed or overwhelmed by crowds and loud noises. she prefers to stay inside, as she's anxious about being perceived in her regression. while in her puppy regressed state she may venture to the backyard, when she's simply age regressing, she stays holed up in her room. her favorite activities tend to be the same as mentioned at the start, as she tends to avoid others entirely while regressed (aside from jackie, and even then she won't reach out first). she loves reading, writing (both journalling and secretly indulging in fanfiction!), and watching her scary movies. she doesn't play much or even really leave her bed a lot of the time; oftentimes she'll simply sit and stare at the ceiling, getting lost inside her head.

R  ──  regression. [how often do they regress? how do they behave when they regress?]

     shauna doesn't regress very often, though this leads to longer periods of regression than she'd like. she typically shoves off her regression until she can't any longer, thus dropping hard when her emotions tend to get to be too much for her. much like she suppresses her emotions, she suppresses her regression, and thus they both tend to crash down on her when she becomes overwhelmed.

     as a result, shauna is a very fussy and moody regressor. she may cry at the drop of a hat, something that enrages her and makes her feel nothing but shame, thus leading her to lash out or get destructive, which then leads to a spiral of shame. as mentioned earlier, a regressed!shauna is hypersensitive, lashing out very easily both towards herself and others. she tends to isolate herself out of fear of judgement and embarrassment of her regression. her regression is almost entirely involuntary, although she can be coaxed by jackie on certain occasions.

S  ──  stuffies. [do they have stuffed animals? what are their names? what do they look like?]

     nope! although she secretly really wants them, longing for a friend when she's all alone regressed in her room, she doesn't have any, feeling too shy and embarrassed to be caught with one. she's very shy and insecure about her regression, and is afraid that having a stuffed animal would give her away, or provide an opportunity for others, even jackie, to make fun of her. however, she loves when jackie shows her some of hers, allowing her to play with whichever ones she wants. she struggles to contain her excitement, something that jackie finds adorable, though to spare shauna the embarrassment, she pretends not to notice.

T  ──  temper. [do they have a temper? do they throw temper tantrums often, or at all?]

     yes! shauna is certainly a regressor with a temper, as is probably obvious by now. she often has meltdowns while by herself, which typically are the root of her regression. a reason why she isolates so much, aside from her fear and shame, is her tendency to lash out both verbally and physically at the slightest of triggers. the second she feels remotely cornered, or babied, or made fun of, shauna will lash out in defense of herself. she's a big biter, and once she's latched on she won't let go. she's certainly a handful, hence why she refuses to ask for help while regressed, and why she tends to keep to herself. she feels so ashamed at the way she can behave, though in the moment all she wants to do is protect herself, even if to an outsider her behavior seems irrational or erratic. jackie is the only one who knows how to handle her, and who doesn't seem to hold these tantrums against her.

U  ──  upset. [how do they express being upset when regressed?]

     shauna expresses being upset primarily through lashing out, and engaging in destructive behavior. it doesn't take much to set her off, and given her sensitivity and how overwhelmed she is, she can easily get lost in her larger emotions. however, when she's able to control herself, she'll oftentimes scribble in her journal, or write curse words in as heavy a hand as she can. she may also scream along to angry music; this is the only time she'll allow herself to be loud. when she wants others to know that she's hurting.

V  ──  voice. [do they speak in a different tone of voice when regressed? how is it different from their normal voice?]

     a regressed!shauna will do her best to never speak aloud if she can help it, feeling self conscious of her voice. when she's regressed, there's a softer lilt to her voice, and the lisp she spent so long getting rid of in speech therapy comes back in full swing. jackie made the mistake of pointing this out to her once, causing shauna to shut down sobbing, although jackie had only thought that it was cute.

W  ──  warm. [what makes them feel all warm and fuzzy?]

     shauna's regression is never really warm and fuzzy unless she's intoxicated. she'll oftentimes regress pleasantly after getting drunk at a party, or smoking a joint after practice, getting giggly and feeling more comfortable with being small. she'll give into her more childish whims that she typically finds too shameful to indulge in, getting silly with jackie and even letting her guard down around others for brief moments.

X  ──  (e)xtra. [additional headcanons?]

     shauna becomes very vocal when she's high, especially when she's puppy regressed! she'll bark your ear off, barking at jackie and constantly whining and whimpering for attention. she becomes very clingy and needy, and is not afraid to bare her teeth or growl when she feels afraid. she constantly explores her surroundings with her mouth, which is why jackie had found getting her a pacifier to be such a good idea, but she's far too stubborn to accept it.

Y  ──  yucky. [what do they dislike?]

     shauna really hates being babied! while she may warm up to it if she's small enough, it tends to pull her out of regression and into a highly distressed state. she hates feeling like a burden, or like she's being made fun of, and oftentimes being babied makes her feel like she's being belittled, or somehow taken advantage of. shauna also hates naps (unless she chooses to take them!) and generally being told what to do. she's one of those kids who will do the exact thing their carer tells them not to as soon as they've left the room.

Z  ──  zzz. [what are some sleep habits of theirs? do they take naps often? do they have a specific time for naps or bedtimes?]

     shauna loves her sleep, and hates having it interrupted! while she will immediately get angry and fussy if jackie suggests she needs a nap, when shauna is on her own, she absolutely loves them. she likes to stay up late, but she's often dozing throughout the day and evening in order to be able to do so. you can't tell anyone this though! this is a secret she keeps closely guarded. shauna also tends to fall asleep with a digit in her mouth, whether her thumb, or a few other fingers, the suckling helps her to relax and drift off.

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──  cg!shauna who initially freezes up when you begin mewling and whimpering in your sleep late one night at her house. you stayed over to study, and really studying is what you meant when you told this to your mom, even though the two of you only recently began dating. shauna's kind of.... stuffy with her feelings, oftentimes being last to realize them, and being far too stubborn to acknowledge them until it's too late. so your relationship hasn't exactly... heated up quite yet. in fact, it's the first time you've slept over since your relationship's status changed, and you weren't even really supposed to sleep over. more like it got late enough that both of you dozed off while attempting to review french flashcards for an upcoming test.

──  cg!shauna who is... emotionally constipated. internally she panics for a moment as your whimpers intensify, not quite sure if she should wake you up and figure out what's wrong, or if she should let the moment pass. but her heart twinges at your clear distress, and she shakes you gently, rubbing her own sleepy eyes. you jolt awake at the sudden touch, jerking away instinctively, wounding your girlfriend's pride, and making her anxiety spike. "what's wrong," she asks, saying your name, concern clear in her voice as much as she tries not to appear as though she cares too much, not wanting to scare you off. you immediately begin to cry, feeling afraid and too vulnerable, burrowing yourself into her chest.

──  cg!shauna who needs to be coaxed into a carer headspace, oftentimes feeling insecure and quite frankly unsure about her ability to be nuturing and provide proper comfort and care. admittedly, she's not a kids person, or at least she doesn't think that she is. instinctively she stiffens at the sudden contact, the way you cling to her like you need her, like she's a beacon of safety, soaking her oversized band tee with tears. something about the helpless and innocent way you clutch at her chest keeps her from cracking a dry joke about you trying to get in her pants, instead causing a shift in her brain, imperceptible to you in your state of distress, but very apparent to shauna who in seconds went from uncomfortable and quite shamefully a bit disgusted at your vulnerability, to leaning into your touch, moving you as slightly as possible so her arms can fit better around your figure, strong and stable.

──  cg!shauna who shushes you soothingly, recognizing the signs you're regressed from her own shameful moments of smallness. she shifts so that you're positioned more comfortably on her lap, bouncing her knee ever so slightly to soothe you with the motion. she feels too awkward to question you about whether you're regressed, and you are far too preoccupied to let her know, so the words go unspoken, hanging heavy between you. shauna just wants to calm you down, both for your own sake, and out of fear for her parents waking up. she strokes your back with unclipped nails in an attempt to ground you enough so that you may be able to speak to her. you sniffle, taking a big deep breath in, your entire body shuddering in response.

──  cg!shauna who ironically struggles with words, despite her passion for writing and literature. she oftentimes communicates through books or music, being self-conscious of her feelings. on this night, anxiety constricts her throat with it being too dark to read and her record player silent across the room. once you regain control of yourself, she continues to rock you wordlessly for a moment or two, before gently asking you what's the matter.

──  cg!shauna who allows you a moment to find your words, not pushing you for answers when you can't immediately let her know. perhaps what frustrates a little!shauna the most is being pressed for answers, or not taken seriously, so she is very conscious of not doing the same to you, even though she'll never voice her own regression. she's not pushy or demanding, even when the silence begins to feel awkward. "i'm here, i'm here," she'll whisper into your hair. "i'm not leaving, i promise."

──  cg!shauna who can never quite bring herself to use petnames or terms of endearment. they feel awkward in her mouth, never quite rolling off the tongue the way they seem to from others. she'll always have to clear her throat afterwards, or feel entirely too self conscious to continue speaking. she doesn't really like having them used on her either, if she's being quite honest. being referred to as "mama," "mommy," or with any other parental terms, would do little more than make her freeze in her tracks. the most she feels comfortable is "shaun," or "shaunie," variations of her real name.

──  cg!shauna who tends to be a quiet carer, yet who picks up on all of your little tics and quirks. given your regression functioning as a trauma response, she's very attentive to minute details that may be difficult for you to communicate verbally. while she isn't the best with words, she's constantly allowing you to worm your way into her flannel, gifting you with a few of her older ones which are spritzed with the cologne she secretly wears.

──  cg!shauna who has pages upon pages of her journal dedicated to you. she'll journal about your regression, noting down your favorite snacks and little quirks, and also reflecting on the way it feels to care for you. she'll never admit this, not even to the therapist who recommended this type of journaling, but it helps her to keep track on days she feels frustrated, or useless. shauna will constantly write you little notes to read, feeling more confident in her words when they're scrawled on a piece of looseleaf paper.

──  cg!shauna who loves to read classics to you, even when you're too small to comprehend a word that she's saying. she's constantly wanting to show you a favorite passage, or offering to answer your questions on the passages you read in class. she can be a tad clueless however, reading you shakespearean tragedies when you're hardly old enough to comprehend the few picture books she keeps for your entertainment. she doesn't quite understand that you're not as interested as her in her books, or that they might not be appropriate for you in your regressed state.

- you call her mama :33

- lowkey a beige mom,,, LOL but she does buy you colorful toys and what not

- very strict with timeouts and she doesn’t give into you, even if you pull out the puppy eyes

- letting you hang out in her big closet while she’s getting ready for work

- napping on her shoulder in the backseat while getting driven somewhere

- she goes all out on your nursery, hiring people to professionally paint your room and build a crib big enough for you

- traveling everywhere with mama!! the jet lag always makes you so fussy, but she’s quick to calm you down.

- big on those glass avent bottles,,, she loves feeding you with those :33

- speaking of bottle feeding, she has a little burp rag with your name stitched on the corner in cursive :(

- she never really speaks in a baby voice towards you, she just has that mama voice ™

“hold on, honey.” “ah- sh sh, calm down, baby.”

- dresses you in cute little polo ralph lauren sweaters and beanies when it’s cold :((

puppy ! shauna who can always tell when you’re feeling sad , trotting over and shoving her nose in your face , whimpering. she hates to see you sad , making it her mission to stay by your side until you’re feeling better.

she’ll lick your face , giving you sloppy doggy kisses in an attempt to cheer you up. if you’re teary she’ll lick all of your tears away lovingly.

she’ll lay her head on your lap , wriggling until she’s positioned comfortably. usually this gets a weak chuckle out of you which makes her tail wag.

she’ll fetch you a comfort item , sometimes one of your own but other times one of hers. puppy ! shauna isn’t usually very good at sharing , but when her friend is sad she’ll do anything to change that !

puppy ! shauna who gently places one of her paws over your hand in an attempt to bring you comfort.

she’ll butt her head against you looking for pets to soothe the both of you. she’s quiet while in comforting mode but if anyone tries to make a snide remark or press you about what’s bothering you she’ll stand up in front of you and start to growl.

shauna will snag an extra piece of meat for you if you’re feeling under the weather. she carries it in her mouth dropping it on your lap , sitting at your feet wagging her tail pleased with herself. she makes sure you eat it , biting at any greedy hand who tries to snatch it.

shauna getting your attention by doing every trick she knows to cheer you up. paw five , playing dead , shaking paws , kisses , fetch , every single one. she does a playful little bow at the end of her little show. she won’t stop until she gets a smile out of you no matter how long it takes.

she’s a flexible pup. if you’re feeling super down in the dumps she’ll simply sit by your side , whimpering when you cry , nuzzling at you with her head. other times she’ll bring you her leash or an old soccer ball and nudge you to take her outside. sometimes all you need is some fresh air as a change of pace and the company of your best pal.