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after a bunch of gaining and losing, i’m down almost 30 pounds from last summer! i was trying on shorts i wore last year & could barely move in and they fit so much better! i wish they were too big but maybe they will be by summer! i just wish it would work faster ffs

anyone got a low cal alternative to peanut butter it’s the only thing i wanna fkn eat

i know i’m back on the wagon because i added a night time workout to the routine for the first time ever and im actually … looking forward to it ? i’ve been off for a couple months but i got a beach trip coming up in a month and i WILL hit a goal by then!

the curse of washing your jeans so they fit tighter and being convinced you gained 10 pounds in two hours

oh also! i got my first comment on how much i’ve lost!!! only downside was that it was my 60+ year old dishwasher and he said it in front of everyone and kept asking me throughout the night what i was doing differently. soooo embarrassing but i will TAKE it !

i bought a pair of work pants back in october and when i first bought them, they were so tight they barely zipped up and i could barely do a squat (which is problematic as i am a bartender and also tall, so im constantly bending and squatting to reach into coolers) and tonight i put them on and i had to put on a belt because they’ve become too loose! i don’t see it on me yet but that was some nice validation for the day :)

so close to my first major gw!! i told someone i’ve lost over 30 pounds and she didn’t believe me, which makes sense since im still so big but it motivated me to keep losing !

today sucks, yesterday sucks, i’m eating too much and sleeping too much and haven’t worked out my muscles ache and everything sucks today lol

little personal win of the week: i am just shy of 4 pounds from the weight listed in my drivers license !

i remember as a kid at the very beginning of this whole journey i would be in my basement for hours trying to do every single song on just dance (i was actually pretty good but always thought i was too f@t to be in dance class) ive been working my way through the old games as an adult as part of my workouts and it’s been really healing and fun to play as an adult and rediscover my love for dance ⭐️ (i just did 35 minutes and im sweating my ass off too so that’s a plus)

gained back all the weight i lost last week in one weekend. i hate working but nothing keeps me on track like being stuck behind a bar all night lol. i brought some safe food today, and trying to drink as much water as possible to reduce the bloating. i didn’t get a workout in today but tomorrow we’re hitting the ground running! fuck movie theatre popcorn and fuck crumbl cookies for real my biggest enemies atm

yall this weekend SUCKED lol if i weigh in tmr morning and lost all my progress from the last two weeks im gonna freak tf out lol

i had a feeling my period was coming and sure enough i was greeted by a disgusting surprise this morning 🫠 now im bloated bc of my uterus and i need to eat so i can take some pain meds but nothing sounds good :( and i have to work another super busy event in a few hours, i still have to workout, but i want to lay in bed and rot all day

been on track all week so far with the exception of a couple mini egg rolls i ate at work while i was too busy to prep my own food. but i can feel my period coming so the true test will be if i can make it through the next few days without a binge. i reeeaaaally want to get to my first gw before christmas 🥲

my favorite part about bringing my own food to work is when i don’t eat it 😈