i so desperately want to be at peace without you

whatever you do, remember the worst parts.

tems saying the song is actually “i won’t wait for you”, at this particular moment in my life is exactly what i needed.

dumb enough to have let you hold my heart

feel like i’m losing my mind

please go out there and make me hate you. i do not want to love you anymore.

i have a vision of living a completely different life with you. one so far from the pain we’ve endured thus far. the only way to get there is through love. love and loss. more love than loss. but loss is always necessary. it’s losing the right parts and enduring the necessary. it’s loving the right parts and understanding the necessary. the future feels close, but the pain isn’t far enough to be there just yet. i have a vision of a completely different life with you, will you help me get there?

nts: periodically make a conscious effort to separate what you actually want from what you are told/conditioned to want