This is a hard post to make, but a necessary one.
Unfortunately, we need to have a talk. I've expressed over the past month or so how I've been having trouble with my writing. This has been caused by a few factors; i.e. having too much on my plate at once, being busy with life, but the main issue I've been facing is loss of interest.
I hate to say it, but over the past few months- ever since I finished Washed Up, as a matter of fact- I've been slowly losing my interest in Red Dead and fanfiction in general. Don't get me wrong, Red Dead is still my all time favorite game series and I love it to bits, but I don't have that same super obsessive love for it that I once did. I tried to push myself to keep writing fanfics in hopes that it would rekindle my passion, but it has not, and now I'm left with unfinished projects that I have to idea how to finish and no motivation to finish.
Writing has been a passion of mine since I was a child. I used to write short kids books in 3rd grade and read them to my class. English was always my favorite subject, and I've always wanted to be an author and publish something of my own some day. The more I write, the better I get, the older I get, the more I want to do this, and I cannot write my own story while trying to juggle fanfictions. It's just not how my brain works, unfortunately.
What does this mean for Love Language, Dos Lobos, and Welcome Back to Escuella's?
As for Love Language and Dos Lobos, I have no idea; however, Welcome Back to Escuella's will be my final big project. It is a story that I've been working on for about a year, and the only one I still really wanna get out there. My goal is still to have it finished and posted by late summer or early fall.
I truly hate to leave Love Language and Dos Lobos abandoned, but I have no idea where to take Love Language, and although I do have lore in my head for Dos Lobos, I just don't have the motivation to write it out. I might just make a post about it explaining the timeline instead so that way y'all can still understand just how crazy this shit is.
Does this mean I'll never write fanfiction again? Who knows? Maybe one day I'll return and pick up where I left off. Maybe I'll return periodically and update these fics. All I know right now is that I am so so incredibly grateful for all of the love and support I have been given over the past year and half(??) that I've been writing for y'all. It is because of you that I feel like I finally have the ability to do something bigger and fulfill this childhood dream of mine.
From the bottom of my heart, thank you for everything <3 and I'll see you in a few months when I finish Welcome Back to Escuella's
