brace yourself

sometimes u headcanon a character as a sexuality but then also ship things that contradict that. sometimes you ship things you would NEVER EVER want in canon. this is because these things are fun and silly and not legally binding.

the thing about the fandom experience is that it becomes p clear that the art itself is very secondary to the experience of a community or in-group to a lot of ppl

what i mean with this ig is that there r ppl that seem to be way bigger fans of fandom than the thing itself

i wanna add, i dont think there is anything particularly wrong with this per say. ofc ppl r desperate to be a part of a community and use their hobbies as a vehicle to find similar likeminded individuals that share their interests. it can even be a necessary social space for many. it just really does shape the reality of it and how it all operates, and i just especially dislike when it turns these spaces meant for discussing a piece of art into high school parodies lol. and ofc, if ur main desire is to actually prioritize analysis of a text for what it is… well…

does anyone know how to go to sleep

i need to killl myself but like nonchalantly

i think where i feel the most different in perspective from the average person who enjoys doing Fandom stuff is that i don't particularly care for media that Would Be Good If It Were Good and almost nothing i make is ever coming from the desire to "fix" a canon. the deciding factor of whether or not i'm gonna like something in a fandomy way or just a regular way is completely unrelated to any Missed Potential and entirely hinges on how much i feel like i want to or am capable of filling in the gaps in a narrative or a characters' life that just didn't warrant getting any screentime in the source material. like when i think something had a bunch of potential but completely missed the mark in execution that's normally disappointing more than it is any kind of inspiring. the stuff that makes me want to Create the most fervently is stuff i think is good for real.

everything is changing and maybe that’s okay

as you get older you realise that anything that helps you stop feeling stuck is welcome even if it hurts at first