I moved back home about 2 years ago and my family has been really stressing me out (like my sister told me Iām frigid and need to open up more and then constantly tells me Iām the most toxic person whenever I say anything - Iāve also never told her anything but she keeps trying to out me to my v religious family - they also hate my dog that I got for emotional support and to help me recover from my accident). Like we both chip in to help pay the monthly mortgage but my sister is somehow entitled to her own bathroom but not me? Like why canāt we share the bathroom if weāre both paying? I just donāt get it and itās just really demeaning to have to act like a āguestā in the bathroom in the house I live in. Also I tried to bring up the idea of me buying a lock for my bedroom door (people go in all the time even with Iām not home, and they NEVER knock even though I ask them all the time) and they were genuinely upset Iād even consider it. Also my sister has depression and the family always accommodates her needs but I also have depression, anxiety, OCD, ptsd, and Iām part of the covid response so Iām stressed and v scarred but they laugh whenever I express any sort of sign of neurodiverence. I finally got a good paying job and just found an place within my budget and they are now saying how dumb it is for me to rent rather than buy. I told them that the housing market is impossible and I absolutely canāt afford to by a house (avg price is $1.2M) and they said that I just need to wait like 2 years for the market to cool down... I feel like Iām losing my mind. Iām turning 26 and I feel like Iām suffocating and losing every part of me. Iām so fucking sick of everything and I just donāt want to do any of this anymore. But just at the mere notion of me possibly moving out everyone is trying to guilt trip me. I honestly have to alternate between crying and laughing because what even is my life??
