Meltdown | Yumemi's Body Reaction | Chapter 4
Yumemi had seen the blood splatter on the floor, well there was really no doubt about it now, once more, someone was dead. As soon as she did she clutched onto Yajiroâs arm, something she seemed to always do when she was scared, it reassured her a little.
She closed her eyes though, not wanting to stare at the blood splatter for too long, she needed to justâŚtry to mentally prepare herself for the inevitability of the dead body she would be seeing soon enough. She felt that they were moving and Yumemi opened her eyes for a moment. It was only a moment.
The first green haired person only made Yumemi grip onto Yajiro tighter. It was probably well known at this point that Yumemi was afraid of Fukai and she had been hoping that during this investigation phase that she would be able to avoid her, she didnât want to get in the way of her, especially considering she was on âthin fucking iceâ. Her eyes soon glanced over to the other green haired person past them.
Lying there on the grass was one of her best friends and before she knew it she had let go of Yajiroâs arm and was bolting over to the body. Please somehow be okay, please be somehow okay, please be somehow okay. It was apparent though when she arrived at his body that that would not be the case. Seeing him in this condition only made things worse, it was one thing to have him die but to kill him in a way that seemed rather brutal just seemed unnecessarily cruel to her. At that point she just collapsed and started bawling her little eyes out.
She would make him all the wishing stars she could to make sure he is at peace and is happy and safe in the afterlife, whatever it was after she sadly would have to condemn another friend to death.
But waitâŚFukai said that her wishing stars were stupid and didnât work and wouldnât help anyone. Those wishing stars had really been her form of a coping mechanism because as long as she could give her wishing stars and wish that they would be okay in the afterlife, âknowingâ that somehow her wishes would come true it brought her comfort. Now thoughâŚ.she felt like she couldnât do that anymore and without her coping strategy Yumemi was left with a little empty hole in her heart.
She barely even notices Yajiro patting her back as she cried, her thoughts began to run wild as she began to, in addition to the crying, have a panic attack. She hadnât talked to Maestro in a while she had been a terrible friend, she couldâve at least tried more while he was alive now she canât do anything with him ever again. Maestro had also said to her right from the beginning that he would try his best to protect her and she had promised that she would too the best she could butâŚ.once again Yumemi was a failure. Such an ironic outcome that out of the two of them she was the one still standing. Yumemi frowned more, he probably hated her for basically suddenly abandoning him and then failing her to do what she had promised. Why did her best friend have to end up like this, she didnât want this, she hated this, she wanted her friend back so she could be an actual friend to him and see him smile but alas there was nothing Yumemi could do. There was probably nothing she could do now either she was barely any useful to anyone during investigation, that much was true. Yumemi began to hyperventilate both from how heavy her crying was and her panic attack. Oh god oh god oh godâ
It was now that Yumemi fully registered that Yajiro was patting her âT-thank y-you Yajiro-s-sanâ she managed to squeak out between her quickened breaths. She suddenly got a massive headache..or rather it was somewhat like she could feel her mind begin to cloud over. Oh no was it happening again? She didnât want it to happen again! She makes a small little groaning noise as she presses both hands on her head as if that would stop weird Yumemi from coming out, that was just embarrassing to her. The only other thing that Yumemi manages to say is âHelpâ sheâs not sure how anyone would though, she didnât even understand it herself and everyone was focused on the body (which for obvious reasons, is more important than her current wellbeing) so perhaps it would be best if she does do a swap over, then she could just sit there, staring into the void (lest someone tells her to do something) and not get in the way of others while they actually be helpful and be her punishment for failing as a best friend or a friend in general. Yumemi just shut up now, the only noises coming from her being the hyperventilated tears flowing down her face.