that girl is poison

Working Title: Oracle

I disappeared into a forest yesterday.

I left my shoes at the edge of the clearing.

The earth under my feet reminded me what connection felt like

a vibration so subtle, a heart beat pulse,

its faint but it’s there. its a wave of calm

that feels like what used to be called ‘home’ never did.

It’s quiet, so warm, I think I’ll let the grass grow over my body.

Ants could bury me in this peace,

I’ll never hear the sound of ice falling off tree branches or feel hard hands digging me out of my foxhole to shake me awake, remind me what a house felt like

A loud banging, wood nailed together, sweat laden brow, attempts to show the world this is what a home looks like, does this look like a house to you?

/Attachment Styles/

We should be a velcro type of love. Easy on. Easy off. No directions needed. It’s the attach and detach method of choice. Simply press the two sides together and you’re good to go. The entire mechanism is simple: two pieces of textured fabric, one is prickly and the other - soft. The fabric fibers interlock creating a hold, and yet they are easily ripped apart when you’re done using it.

Rip and dip, baby, use the same strip until it doesn’t stick anymore. Have you noticed the soft side gets ragged each time you rip off the rough side? It looses whatever form it had. It turns into bristles on a baby tooth brush. Too soft, formless, unstickable.

I want a love like crazy glue. 30 seconds together and DING! permanent attachment. Give me a love that requires a trip to the ER if I need to remove my heart from your hands. Surgical excision. I can’t do this on my own. A love that requires reading the fine print, warning labels that tell you to handle with care.

I need a love like cellophane. Transparent. Flexible. It shields, but it does not hide. It’s a force field without forcing a feeling. I need a love that clings, is easily removed, and easily put back on, and no damage done. Soft, flexible, and unchanging. I need that see through and stuck on you type of love.