SKYGAZE.

Tapi bedanya ini bukan ngurus 2 anak masih kecil, ini ngurus satu keluarga yang isinya udah pada gede. Tapi yang disuruh mikirin macem-macem satu orang doang.

I am fucking tired of being the shield

everyone demands to be understood, but does anyone think about how I feel? how I demand to be understood as well. how I’m tired with this situation, well I think I’m the only one who DOES THINK ABOUT EVERYONE ELSE.

‘no, you can’t put anymore burden to your father’

as if I don’t have my own burden to bear. as if I’m the only child that has to cope and swallow all of this. 

I can’t have any breaks, can’t I?

responsibilites, i’m tired.

yes, I am demanding.

demanding a lot of attention,

demanding for a vacation.

so much for wanting to be a good daughter and a good wife.