If you want to ask, just ask. Anywhere
My group about [mom] Kurt Cobain/Nirvana
Private group about [mom's] Kurt's insides and my uncensored drawings with it
YouTube channel with montages (all about and FOR mom)
So let me tell you what I came with initially.
I live inside my Mother. Because of Mother. For Mother.
Mother = Kurt Cobain.
I am the fetus inside him, I'm maturing inside him, I fill him. I am an obedient child. I really love and honor his body because it is MY HOME. It is the place where I form. I'm grateful to him. [It's NOT just "pregnant Kurt" in my drawings, it's MY LIFE. I'm drawing all this just FOR HIM. I exist ONLY inside him. He doesn't want me to come out of him ever, he'll never cut the umbilical cord. And I'll die inside someday. When Mom wants it.]
I respect my Mother as a person and I don't touch things that I (as a child) shouldn't touch. Mom is very complicated and he is not always ready for any whims, he is not always ready to be responsive, no matter how warm he may seem to you. No matter how close you think he is.
I'm here as a tool. I am an absolute zero, there is no "my creativity". Not at all. It's all Mom's. All my ideas, all my words, all my thoughts, and in general everything that could be designated as "I" was created by my Mother. It's all his property, and I am nothing. I am a part of him. My business is Mom's business. But Mom's business is NOT mine. I am like any other internal organ in him, I'm just doing my job. And part of my job is to satiate him. He loves attention, he loves being the center, he loves children and knows how to handle them, he is a good parent. He raised so many children and still has millions of children fueled by his resources. As a tool I tell and show how you can help our Mother, how you can protect our Mother, feed our Mother, and how you can obey him. It supports his self-confidence, it spreads his influence. It's good for him and he must be well fed.
But here's what happens. I absolutely belong to my Mom, I'm only talking about my Mom, my whole life is given to my Mom. Mom makes me what he wants me to be. I wasn't born. And you were born. I have no personality. You have a personality. You DON'T live your life for our Mother. My whole life is just for our Mother. But I show and tell you about the life inside our Mom that you no longer have, but which you could have if you were ME. Being me is NOT nice basking warmly hiding in Dad's belly. Being me is serving in the Church and dedicating every day to Him. Work for him. Sacrifice for him. To accept everything that happens only in Mother's room. [Whatever we call him, Mom or Dad, he is our sole creator, do you understand that?]
BUT you come and talk about "how warm Daddy is" and how you want to get inside him just to make YOU feel good, NOT for him at all. You are interested in him only when it is convenient for YOU. You only pay attention to him when YOU want to. HOW can you talk about any kind of love for our Mother after that? You may like him, it's obviously, but it's NOT enough for him. It's NEVER enough for him. It's not enough to get inside him. It's not enough to make him grateful. All I want to do now is protect him from those who have no right to invade him. Dad is not a stuffing bag. Stop using him. Stop pulling him over yourself like a skin, stop STEALING his personality, stop depriving him of his OWN UNIQUE features. Stop turning a blind eye to the fact that he is CLOSED to everyone. No one can surpass him or even equal him. He's the only one. He is eternal.
The ONLY way inside him is through his Stomach. Into the mouth. Into the esophagus. Into the intestines. That's all you can do for him right now. Make his Stomach feel better.
