Sissy Censor Slut

Sorry been gone a while, me and mommy have been having a lot of fun but I didn't really have much to post about until the other day. So have a Christmas post! Or slightly later than Christmas post hehe. I might make another one later today who knows

Anyway a few days ago mommy decided to try a fun game, she had me locked up for 4 months and I haven't touched my clit a single time, mommy only touches it to wash me and then she locks me back up. So she decided to unlock me and keep watch on me for 24 hours, if I was ever hard she said she would beat me and if I didn't get soft again the punishments would get worse and worse.

So I take hrt and I've been locked so it's a little tough for me to get hard anyway so I thought it would be easy... The second she unlocked me she pulled down her shirt and showed me her bra and I got hard instantly. She slammed her fist into my balls while pulling her shirt up, which only made me harder. Then she gut punched me and slammed my balls again at the same time until I got soft,it was tough but I got soft again eventually.

I had to walk around with crotchless panties only all day so mommy could see my clit, one time she blew a kiss at me while I was serving her tea and I quickly got a hard kick in the balls for disobeying. This happened 3 or 4 more time until she decided that there would be one more challenge for today.

She decided that shed pump my cock for 30 minutes and anytime she felt an edge she would: choke me for an extra minute, give my balls 50 slaps, and extend the time by a minute. It didn't end well for me...

At first it took a while... At least by my standards, it was about 30 seconds until my first edge. She wrapped her arm around my throat and would pump with her thumb and index finger while slapping with the other 3.

Edge, edge, edge. All within like 40 seconds, so a minute and a half more choking 3 more minutes on the timer and 150 slaps not even 1 minute 10 seconds into my now 33 minute torture session. Then it was 35, then it was 40, then it was over an hour in under 10 minutes. And mommy wasn't letting my neck go either, she'd readjust her grip and I'd be able to get one quick breath, which she would reward by punching my balls.

I was in heaven, so much pain, my lungs burning, so close to cumming but not being able to. I passed out, or at least I thought I did, a few times(lost count) before the thirty minute mark, drooling all over mommy's arm with a dumb face. She must have felt like I couldn't take much more so she gave me a choice, die or experience all that built ul torture in the next 10 minutes and only maybe die. I couldn't resist even harsher pain so I wanted the speed round.

Well then, be a good girl and stick out your tongue for daddy.

So I haven't been released from chastity/cum like a man in a long time. It's all been sissygasms, ruins or being edged for hours. I wanted to be a bit of a brat and wanted to see if mommy would cave to a little (a lot) of begging.

I started the day by putting forward the idea but she shot me down almost instantly. "you know good girls don't cum like that" :'/ fine,ill ask again later.

So she comes in from work and I say that I'd really appreciate just one chance to cum normally. I'm not using any sort of safe word so she knows I'm teasing, but I also kinda mean it. Anyway she shoots me down again. Then I ask again, and again.

When I ask for the fourth time she stands up, walks over and gut punches me really hard. I collapse to the floor instantly then she stands on my head. I'm doubled over, clutching my stomach while she grinds her heel into my head and firmly tells me "my house my rules slut, you're only not selling your whore body because I will it." she stomps down on my head before continuing "but you'd probably like that huh? Getting used by a different person everyday, used like a fuck doll. Disgusting." then she spat on me before I hear her high heels click against the ground as she walked away. I dont think she saw the smile I had the whole time she was berating me.

I don't know what I looked like when I looked up at her but I remember the look of disgust on he face when I begged "please fucking ruin me! ". In that moment if she had permenantly crippled me I wouldn't have cared.

She marched over and stomped as hard as she could on my hand, grinding the heel of her boot hard. She told me to beg like I meant it, kiss her boots and lick the dirt off. I did, the boots were spotless as they connected with my face sending me sprawling back.

I playful crawled away but all she had to do was press down lightly on my useless balls to get me to freeze up. "you know all this talk about cumming would be done if we just crushed your useless little balls". She stepped down harder,and harder. "if you want to keep your useless balls for whatever reason, strip. Now."

I did what I could before she let up to let me up to strip my skirt off. She grabbed my hair and shoved me against the wall. "here's what's going to happen you useless skank, I'm going to beat the shit out of you until you're begging me to stop, and then I'm gonna keep going."

She wrapped her arm around my neck and choked me out while repeatedly hitting my stomach, it hurt so bad. My lungs and stomach were burning until she dropped me and I could get my breath back for a second before she got down and I felt her arm again. This time my balls got the most punishment before she shoved me into the wall. She turned me around and looked in my eyes as she choked me again, I can't lie her unfeeling gaze as she threatend to kill me there and then was the hottest she's ever looked. She did let me go and I collapsed to my knees coughing.

"now you're going to shut the fuck up and come to bed, and if I hear one more thing about cumming I'll beat you're balls until they don't work, then you won't even be able to shoot your watery pathetic sterile girl cum. Do I make myself clear?" I really was exhausted so I nodded. She called me a good girl then picked me up and carried me to bed, she stroked my stomach and my throat and kept saying how good I was.

Sexy time over so if that's all then skip next but maybe also don't.

I woke up later that night to sobbing in the bathroom so I went in and saw mommy crying. I asked her what was wrong but she seemed a little startled, she walked over and asked if she could hug me so I said she could. She worried that she was too hard on me, apparently when she saw me lying on the bed once the high died down with my neck and stomach bruised she felt awful.

I told her it was okay and that I know my safe word, if I didn't want it I wouldn't take it. She said she felt like she was manipulating me, she was happy to have me and hurt me but sometimes she thought she was some sort of monster or something. I told her that if it was that big of a problem we'll stop everything, live "normally" for as long as it takes and if it really scares her well get through it together. But that she should also know that I'm equally as complicit as her if something goes wrong, this definitely isn't the case for every sub don't get me wrong but if I haven't set a clear enough boundary that's on me not her.

Anyway we worked it out, I reassured her that I enjoy every second and she told me like usual that she didn't mean a word she said that afternoon and that she loves me no matter what. Then we slept in each others arms and we were good in the morning.

The point of this bit was basically that sometimes doms feel bad and that sometimes they need care too, maybe a bad example because we're both very extreme but still both parties are important.

A few nights ago we were lying in bed and mommy suggested going out shopping with me because she was off during the week for a change. I was really happy because she never does this sort of thing, usually when we go out its usually on a date to a resteraunt or the cinema which is amazing don't get me wrong but it's nice doing something simpler sometimes.

Although to "spice things up a bit" she asked if I would like to wear some toys. I was a little apprehensive but this could be a whole new kind of pleasure so I had to accept.

So the day comes and I dress really conservatively, long sleeved dress, long black socks, frilled black panties and a thick bra along with fairly heavy black make up.

I dress like this Alot anyway but today it was because I had vibrating nipple clamps, vibrators strapped to my cage and one of those lush vibrators in my ass.

As we were walking around mommy would turn them on for a second to remind me that they were their but she stopped for a while, until I had to pay for our food shopping, then she turned them all full blast, first the my nipples, then my ass and finally my clitty felt really good, so good I had to brace myself again the till. I was so embarrassed when the lovely cashier asked if I was okay, luckily it was a hot day so I had a nice excuse but I gave mommy a pouty look afterwards.

We went to a resteraunt afterwards. We picked a booth right at the back with almost no one around cause it was a Wedensday at mid day. Mommy was determined to make me cum so after we ordered she put the vibrator on full blast again put her arm around me, then she waited as I tried to hold in my moans while shifting in my seat.

Eventually I came hard, soaking my panties. I had to bite my hand to prevent me from moaning and I just put my head down on the table. I could vaguely hear mommy talking to the nice waiter, who had just brought our food, asking if he could bring some ice water for me cause I had "heat stroke".

We ate, left then when we got home, right as the door closed she pinned me to the wall, kissed me deeply and told me that she was going to reward me for being a good girl.

Mommy came home from work today really angry, apparently one of her Coworkers messed something up for them and now she has to fix it. I served her dinner and reminded her that I'm here for her both to vent to and to let out her frustration on.

She stood up, hugged me and then reeled back a punched me in the stomach, really hard. I collapsed basically instantly and she told me to "lie on the bed naked before I'm finished eating or you'll regret it"

So I did, I kneeled there and waited for her. She barged into the room, slapped me across the face, grabbed my throat then spat in my mouth. I thanked her and she basically told me "shut up or I'll punish you more, the only things your allowed to say are you safe word and yes mistress, understood?" I did.

She kept squeezing my throat while she grinded against my cage. She let go of my throat only to lean back and start slapping my balls. She put a strap on over my cage, put both her hands around my throat and said that she would ride me until she was satisfied.

I almost completley blacked out a few times, eventually she took her hands away from my throat only to punch me a few more times, at this point tears were running down my face but I was smiling the whole time, she kept calling me a pain slut and a bitch, that I'm worthless as anything except a punching bag, that if she hadn't come along I'd be miserable.

She pulled out her strap on wrapped her arms around my neck and properly choked me out while fucking me and I came so hard.

Afterwards she ran us a bath and gently stroked everywhere she'd hit. She told me none of what she said was true and that I was amazing. Although she might think so I have trouble accepting it at times, but when I feel her arms around me and she's telling me that I'm worth everything to her, I can really believe it.

After the bath we went to bed and she held me tight till we both fell asleep. I woke up to her making me breakfast for a change so I think I helped her let off some steam :D.

I dont know if I've ever mentioned it in here but mommy works out fairly frequently, shes not like, "super" muscular or anything but she's pretty strong. Point is I got beat pretty badly although how much of that was me naturally submitting as soon as I felt her touch and how much of it was her technique I'm not sure

I'm a bit of a pain slut (if you couldn't tell) so when her opening move was to pin me to the wall and repeatedly punch my stomach I knew it was over.

After she moved I fell forward then she grabbed me by wrapping an arm around my neck and choking me while slamming a fist into my balls.

I collapsed holding my newly tenderised useless balls then she put her foot on the back of my head and pressed down slowly but firmly, until my forehead was on the ground while she grinded her foot into me.

She told me to submit to her, say she won and then beg to be her slave, I immediately submitted. I told her she won, she's stronger than me and I'll always be her pathetic little bitch, I asked her to keep me as her slave for all time, she seemed happy enough with that answer

Because I lost I had to lick her feet clean and lick the sweat off her (blindfolded so I couldn't see her flawless body)

Mommy spanked me as she walked past me today and I fell to my knees instantly

She asked if I really am *that* much of a slut so of course I just opened my mouth and looked up at her with as good puppy dogs eyes as I could.

She went to the bedroom, got a strap on and just railed my face for I think thirty minutes ish, time gets fuckey when you can't breath for minutes at a time.

Anyway after my mascara was staining my cheeks and my lipstick was all smudged she slapped me, hard, so hard that I fell over, pinned me Down, pushed up my skirt and just went to town on my ass.

I only really remember her telling me how good she felt, and how good of a slut I was.

What really stuck out to me was when she said something along the lines of "I'm never sharing you, the next time we're out if anyone looks at you I'm gonna make sure they know youre My bitch" which made me really happy

Feeling better now though so the horny posting shall resume (trumpets)

... after I have some more exploits to tell everyone about.

No sorry, I might at some point but it's not something I feel comfortable with right now.

Pictures in general are not something I'm really comfortable with but if I were to share something it would be my little clitty.

Mommy decided I was a little to confident, so she handcuffed my hands behind a pole and had me sit with my legs spread.

My cage was unlocked for the first time in weeks only for her to relentlessly tell me how pathetic my little clit is.

"how did you ever think you were a man"

"you're watery little cummies couldn't get anyone pregnant anyway"

"if I put my pussy near your little clit you'd cum"

She whispered into my ear for like half an hour, constantly edging me with 1 finger. I felt so pathetic, but also happy? Like the choice I made to never use my pathetic little thing for it's "intended" purpose again was the right one.

It's intended purpose now is to be mocked, flicked and edged until I'm agreeing with everything she says just to cum, only for her to not let me.

I was so pathetic that her blowing on it got me close, she started whispering insults to my clit and when I finally got to cum, she punched my balls as hard as possible and whispered "cum, you pathetic bitch"

And now I'm locked up for another month, my bits hurt and I'm know that I'm firmly under her

She said she liked buggy and crocodile

It's so hot to me when I go out to do some shopping with bruises all over my body and red marks around my neck. It makes me strain in my cage. One time I went out after mommy slapped me and it was pretty clear but I was so happy.

It also probably helps that I always go out with a cage on, a big plug in and some nipple clamps on, as well as a nice collar usually hidden by a big jumper. I actively have to resist cumming in the middle of tesco.

Don't worry I dont mind answering this sort of thing. Tbh I think so, as I've said before living as a man I wasn't particularly happy and I do almost exclusively dress as a girl now both outside and inside, and people calling me ma'am or whatever makes me very happy. Ive thought about going to a gp but in the UK I've heard trans healthcare isn't great, and I'm not sure if I'd be taken seriously anyway.

But thank you, I think it's important, especially with "this particular" kink to acknowledge how you feel about you're own gender. I feel like Alot of people just push those thoughts to the side and don't really think about it but I feel like Alot of people into feminization or if there's a female equivalent, that are trans they just don't want to think about it because of the unfortunate state of everything surrounding it, (obviously not trans people's fault I feel like I should mention)

Anyway tldr I might be trans but I'm not sure, more people are probably trans than current trends show and everyone is welcome to comment or ask me anything, even if I don't answer don't think you've offended me or anything, I only recently started evn looking at my ask box admittedly :p.