Siri Puffle

10/4/2021

I got supply’s and started my junk journal. It’s the best thing I could have ever started to help heal my inner child. She loves art!

I love watching the TikTok of people making the beautiful pages and now I get to do it myself.

‪Kid kicks it’s own dog‬

‪Me: calm voice “why did you do that?”‬

‪Kid: “WAAAAAhhh”‬

‪Parent turns around “ I wasn’t looking for 5 seconds and drama, what happened”...‬ talking to me...

‪Me: excuse me 😤🤬‬, I explain what happened and nothing. 🤨

Thinking of my great grandmother today, a few things that reminds me of her is her sweet Voice. The way she always baked the best cakes and rolls. How she was so skilled in crafts and scramble. Scrabble is my family’s most played game so it’s important to have one in my house once I buy a home. I best gift that I have remember for years was the doll she made me. She asked me what I wanted her to look like and I told her I wanted the doll to have pink hair. I was probably 5 or 6 way ahead of my time where people dye their hair that color and it’s normal now. But that’s what I wanted so she made me one. She actually made me a little clothe doll with a cute little black dress white skin and pink hair. I was so proud of that doll and I still have it tucked away as one of my childhood toys I will forever keep. It’s just something on my mind. I recently drove with mike up to Prescott to see WWE with max and him one night and we drove through Mayor the little town where she used to live. I can remember the little creek and trees and the smell of it all was so peaceful and it was her home. A little rocking chair and bed and oven in her home so always so perfect. I wish I could have spent time with her as I am now and she could see how much iv changed and how she effected me. She died a few years back now and I remember the night. Our family was all together and she had a wish of do not resuscitate and on her death bed she asked for me. I was asleep and by the time my family got to me she was already gone. I remember dreaming and talking to her that night. I remember seeing this really bright light in the dark night sky on a clear night with the stars out. It was so beautiful and my mom didn’t see it like I did and then I told her great grand mas was in heaven and she was ok she told me so. I was younger and don’t remember this but it happened and I love and miss her.

It’s 830 pm AZ time and I’m already in bed after my shower and face mask. Watching the WWE pay per view and after I’ll switch to my new favorite show Alaskan Bush people. I like that show because it is documentary style of real people living like my dad used to and still lives out in the middle of nowhere.

I wanted to write that I got a new watch today because my Fitbit verse broke. I think it got water damage. Even though it is supposed to be water proof... I got the new Versa that released recently the versa 2: not limited edition or anything. So I am going to try to get Fitbit to do the 1 year warranty because I just got it this year I feel like it would still be covered. Replace my old one and maybe give to cedar as am Xmas gift. Or my mom not sure yet to keep as a backup. Idk yet. Pictures of my new one below.

Bf is away. Missing him so much, but he calls me everyday which makes me really happy, I’m still the one he talks with over everyone else. He likes talking to me and I love talking to him. I’m at his place and taking care of his puppy, but it makes me miss my puppy’s because they can’t all be in 1 apt. Only 2 dogs allowed and plus the, all together would be difficult to handle. That’s because I have two frenchies cake and Knala. Plus Knala has allergy’s so I would have to be careful with them all together. And didn’t know if his puppy would be territorial...

He and I have been looking at houses and I love how he includes me so much because he and I will be living together so all the dogs under one roof, plus his son ever other week and me and him. Not sure how how things will go. I like his picks but we go back and forth a lot. We will see... he sometimes has baby mama drama and I just want to support him and give him what he needs to be successful. I am his biggest supporter and cheerleader. He is also my biggest cheerleader when I need support and to feel validated. He does that and so much more for me.

Journaling is hard.

I tried to see a therapist but she didn’t take my insurance and I need to find someone else.

I’m watching Alaskan Bush people on Discovery go and it was a joke to start watching with bf in hotel in UT. We went to Ut on a mini self made vacation. I loved it because I was outside and in the mountains and peaceful. The mountains I loved so much and bf showed me the best places to eat and we just enjoyed ourselves.

I need to just say I’m grateful and blessed to live around people and one person my bf, who care so much about me to make me happy. He really focuses on doing his things and includes me and talks to me as the person he wants to be around.

This vacation was as he calls “not a copy cat vacation” somewhere he had never taken anyone. Not a girl, family or good friends. It means so much

💋 inspiration and style. Wanted to dye my hair back dark as I lightened it to blonde but missing my brown/dark hair.

3 things I’m grateful today:

1. AC, I live is the middle of hell in over 100 degree weather and I’m so happy I have AC in my car, at work and at home.

2. Candles/smelly things plus modern medicine, I have had a headache all day and having no lights on and having a candle burning eases me. Makes me feel so much better plus of course medicine helps also

6/1/19

My dogs were at my moms while I was at my Bfs he said it was ok for me to have them brought over while he is gone even though he is alergic to short hair dogs. My mom called this morning and told me one ran away. I freaked out so bad that I swore they would be with me again and so now they are happily with me at my BFs and it’s pure bliss and happiness here.

I’m so lucky to have a great guy who respects me and cares about my life and fur babies.

Turns out my dog went potty and went back upstairs to bed because she was tired lol. My mom doesn’t get that my dogs have moody personality’s and thinks it’s funny after the fact

Xoxo love muchly to a stressful/ long day but it can only get better from here

5/20/19

Modivatiinal Monday. Today I was cranky. I’m pmsing hard so my Monday was hard to get through.

I hung out with Michael and his kid last night and we watched WWE Money in the Bank. And then after we watched Beck Lynch 24 special. We stayed up late so I’m sure that didn’t help. I love hanging out with them. Although I had to much sugar drinks and not enough real food so I had a tummy ache.

My doggy’s live with me now. They are so happy and knala broke out to the new treats I got so I am thinking of getting better treats And new food. They are being big baby’s about the dry food and I need to get them better but healthy food so she won’t break out and they will eat.

The weekend before I went to Cali with Michael and we did the minion 5k run and that was so much fun! I suck at running. But I signed up for the Jurrasic run in nov with him so another 5k. we also saw the tar pits in down town and I was amazed and didn’t get much pictures but there is one with me and a sloth haha. And I’ll add pictures of Michael and me in the park having a good time later.

Xoxo xoxo love muchly 💋

Did not celebrate yesterday or today. Well other then my mom and I got Mexican carumbas food. She has been amazing to spend time around. My dogs are so sweet also today we went for a car ride and then have been by my side the last 3 days Iv been home sick.

Friday I met Travis my Bfs friend and saw avengers end game in theater. So lovely spending time with them before I got so so sick. Taken like 4 baths last 3 days and 1 shower today. Today my nose is raw and so Iv lubbed it up with Vic’s vapor rub and it burns and makes my nose extra runny but I can actually breath out of it.

My mom and I talked about why I have a weird habit of washing before bed. When I used to dance my mom would always tell me and my sister to wash (shower) or wash your feet before bed. And so my habit of washing before bed. If I don’t I get grossed out or itchy and uncomfortable. And Iv always had sensitive skin and sensitivity. So my mom calls me princess and the pea because I can feel any little piece of dirt in my bed and need to change the sheets. Im insane and hate sleep in other places without knowing it’s clean. Such a horrible annoying thing because my future husband will have to deal with my insaneness.

Today was a sunny day mostly then around like 2-3 pm it got cloudy overcast a bit and it was so lovely to sit outside in the backyard/garden. While I have been doing laundry and busy getting ready for the week my mom won’t stop watching game of thrones. She started around Easter weekend and it’s been about 2-3 weeks sense then and is already on season 5 middle season. She is binging hard and I’m impressed but worried about her health. But also that’s how I am so it’s a funny trait I get from her lol. I am caught up so I switched to watching YouTube.

So let me tell you, I have not watched YouTube in like 1-2 years as a habit I used to watch everyday like crazy. And all because of Charles Trippy who does daily vlogs. So now I’m catching up on you tubers I used to love. Like Zoella, Alfie days, Charles trippy and Gabriella etc. I love British youtubers more than American but also want to get into podcasts. Podcasts are the new it things and I need to be better informed in the involved worlds. But also I need to listen to podcasts for work so it makes sense to listen to some I actually like.

Iv done my nails today: red on hands and a cute while cream on toes with a nude sparkle to make them look less dead. I hate when people wear nail polish that makes them look dead and so I always make sure if I look dead I put a nude or different sparkle to it looks more interesting. Such a fussy person when it comes to my things.

Here is a lovely photo from my time at home:

Xoxo love muchly and sweet dreams as I am posting this somewhat late (aka 8:30pm) lol

I did Easter with my Bf and kid and they loved it. Searching for eggs and getting all the cool things from the Easter bunny. A dream come true.

I had work today (Saturday) at 6 am which meant I was up extra early. Tomorrow I have to go again at 6 and I don’t know how I will manage it. I got a migraine from not getting enough sleep and it won’t go away. I even tried napping but I can’t get comfortable enough to even nap. I feel like I should eat real food and drink more water because I haven’t been very good about that today. But it’s already been a long day and it’s only 5pm. I think I will be in bed by 9.

Tomorrow I pick up my baby doggies after work tho and bring them to my moms house to stay with me. I’m super excited they get to live with me now and I know they will be super happy also.

Today on the drive home from work I saw fire:

Busy day of meetings and focused energy. This weekend will be hard but need to make money and I’m excited for it.

4/21/19

Today is Easter and I got to spend it with my fur babies and mom, gma and brother. Here are a few photos of the day and show how happy they were, all day smiles! I picked them up in the morning and we drove to my moms. They played outside for loads of love from the family we watched game of thrones. I got to wear my chip and dal rescue rangers shirt I love so much and my comfortable leggings with basic tennis shoes. My hair and makeup were done simple because I didn’t want to touch up in the day.

When I got “home” I got to take a lush big egg bath bomb with rose flower petals and some salts, I also got to eat talenti dairy free sorbetto in flavor Roman Raspberry and a berry lemonade sparkling Smirnoff. I’m happy the day was so beautiful. It was a little warm and sunny but it was only in the 90’s (degrees) in Arizona and I feel very lucky that the Miskitos didn’t eat me haha

Feeling very blessed in the day I had and how luck and fortunate I am in my life to be able to have such wonder thing, wonderful people, and wonderful doggies

Saw my puppies today. Make things really hard for me because they were so sad when I had to leave. I know they miss me and want to be with me because they get so happy when I visit and I don’t see them enough. I need to get my own place so I can have them with me always. They are my babies and I am not doing right by them. I need them as much as they need me.

Iv been working super hard. But not hard enough because I could be doing way better with making appointments and getting a better bonus. I seem to forget that not all my appointments hold and need to make sure I over shoot so I can make more money. I also feel like I’m under a microscope because the other teams are listening to my calls and have openly talked about it. It’s because I was silent and have come in with high numbers. They are shocked and actually it’s a bit funny because I’m not #1 or even top 3-5 but I’m in the top 10 almost everyday I work and have been on the top leader board for most the month. It’s funny how much the other team sucks and my boss just lets me do my thing. Iv offered to do more and was told to focus my energy to perfect my craft. So that is what I’m doing.