Grotesque

I wasn't able to get on here and explain what has happened in the last month? (Dunno, stress blocks memories and gives me bad dissociation)

But basically while i was in bed in a very serious depressive episode with a severe case of arthritis, meaning that i couldn't get up and i barely could walk to the bathroom (which lead to 2 infections but that comes later) i wasn't able to check up on my "friend" which i allowed her to stay in one of the rooms that i want to rent with the condition that they (her boyfriend and her) would fix the roof and paint the water damage and just divide payments and once that was done i would get the contract and they would have to actually pay rent) but they were blasting music all day, they did damage to property, inbited dodgy people, robbed me, used my things my vlothes, and on top of that i realized they were smoking meth all day long (no shame if they're addicts, i was addicted to benzos and opiates so can't judge) but they were not allowed to do it here and bring stuff here cause again, there were two rooms i wanted to rent

Anyways, i ended up trying to kms and then i went back to get hospitalized again for two severe infections.

They stole cards and i got the money back and got one back from one bank, the money on the other is giving me a headavhe but i recovered the card as well, but when my family got involved they all scurried away and robbed me, glasses clothes etc, never fixed anything, mostly destroyed and now I'm struggling w money

My partner Lost her job and i get the sick leave money way too late and it's not enough for all the procedures and legal matters i gotta do

My commission prices have changed since i was underselling my art p much and I'll work on my commission sheet today but basically:

Sketches: 15 USD

Grey color simple: 30 USD

Full color simple: 60 USD

Full color full detail: 80 USD

Background and extra character 5+ or 10+

Just an update: i was hospitalized for a while for a s**cide attempt, just got back home and doctors told me to take it easy but I'm gonna finish two of the commissions that i couldn't finish and I'm open for more slots

It's been hard, recovery has been hard as well, but with your help i know i can make it a bit easier due to expenses and new medicines and tests like a scan test that i have to pay for

I know it's a serious topic, i really don't want to go into details but it's a miracle i made it out alive and art is one of the things which fulfills me.

So yes, open slots and also open for emergency donations

I love you all, thank you for your patience

I've been waiting since 2020 for internal medicine to see me since my healthcare doesn't cover rheumatoid arthritis specialists and I've been getting worse and worse with my spine pinching my nerves and making me almost pass out from pain.

I've been surviving on scraps since I'm not able to work for more than 3 hours without my back hurting too much and i don't want to put my body at risk.

I do all types of Digital Media, from illustrations, graphic design, managing social media, art pieces of any type, pages for musicians/influencers/businesses and my costs are cheap.

If you want to help me save up so that i can see a rheumatologist / psychiatrist (rheumatoid arthritis / schizoaffective type 2/ BPD/ED) and get my disability card please give me work or donate to my PayPal acc.

Paypal.me/sinisterfilth

If i save up and don't have to worry about my job firing me for being too I'll all the time i could also focus on getting the proper documentation for my house and rent/sell it

I owe 54.86 USD for the light bill, my sick leave money won't arrive until the 14th and i tried my best to gather the money (I only managed to pull up half of it so around 24 USD)

I work online and i use work equipment that i cannot easily move to another location to work and i used food money to get data on my phone to message everyone at work and contacts, I'm really afraid of getting fired since I'm already dead weight at my job due to all the medical stuff I've had to attend this year. (And the years coming, since it's a very slow process to somehow find the right medication for my bones issues)

If you could please help? Asap? So that i can run and pay the bill and come back to work

Paypal.me/sinisterfilth

Happy holidays. Thank you.

Light bill is 958 pesos which is around 49.47 USD

Water bill is around the same 48.50 usd

Internet bill is 28.37 usd

Please help, I'm completely helpless, I've asked around for help everywhere, tried to get jobs despite the chronic pain that i feel all the time... my doc gave me even more anxiety meda cause I'm losing it and i don't want to fuck things up or have a breakdown cause guess when my friends are gonna throw a bday party for me? On the third 😢

I wake up checking my bank account knowing that it's not gonna magically be there every day, i lost an incredible amount of weight because i skip meals because i just don't have money for food, I'm at a total loss

My illustrations will be 2x1 and i accept donations at paypal.me/sinisterfilth

If you help me you would lift up a weight off my shoulder and help me not have my lights or water shut down, let alone my internet which is what I need for work when sick leave ends... and well if there's more help im going to be able to eat

Veneno que corre por mi sangre (2022)