I'm Kinkshaming Myself

it was really REALLY good this time too, I was still nervous, which they Laughed at me about, and bruh I was fucked so hard and it was good and I was turning them on and damn damn damn

So last night (7/2) when I should had been asleep, I had another guy come over for sex. However the entire affair was disappointing. The guy was super rough with me, spanking and slapping my butt, boobs, and thighs REALLY hard and it didn't turn me on at all. He also started to choke me really hard and it scared me bc of the strength of the grip and the fact that it was so unexpected. Intercourse was basically non-existence because he wasn't hard at all (when on OKCupid he kept saying he was). And when it came to blowjobs, its took forever. he didn't cum until he started jacking off and then gave me a facial.... which honestly didnt want, since i had taken a shower earlier and he got all over my face, eye, and hair (my eye was red and stingy after that and thankfully it did go away). It also didn't help I could taste the weed and I think I might had gotten a contact high from because eventually both of my eyes were red (none stingy) and I looked high and felt like it. He was very forceful, from the kissing to the fingering, to just....everything (except the intercourse...because again, non existence). The only positive things was that even tho I was on my period, he at least finger me and attempt coitus. It was also the first time I’ve ever had 69 (I was on top).

Also some weird things:

> he asked me if I had RED lipstick, which I did, and he asked me to put some on. Which ok cool but weirdly specific

>on okcupid he was asking for my snapchat so he could send me dick pics and for me to send nudes back. I really didn't want to give him it so I told him I only give it to friends and family (I also have my crush on there, and it would be DEVASTATING if I was sending nudes and it accidentally went to him or my other friends). And while “coitus” was happening, he goes “how about adding me to your snapchat now” which i didn't respond bc WTF WE ARE FUCKING THAT'S SO FUCKING WEIRD TO ASK THAT!

> he was 6′4″ so he was 3 inches short than steve merchant. so i official climbed the tree

>because of his height, i felt small even tho im fat (i currently weigh 240lbs and 5′1″

>cum really does taste salty....

>can’t deepthroat or even take a lot of his dick (i start gagging)

> he orgasmed, i got really wet but not 100% orgasm.....HE SHOULD OF TOUCH MY CLIIIIT

>My hands and mouth still taste like dick (or what i said earlier “my dick taste like hands”)

> he cam in my mouth and I swallowed (out of respect bc i didnt want him to think i didnt want it...tbh i was expecting a facial)

>he was 5-6 inches and he got GIRTH WHICH MAMA LIKES

> when i initiated the “ lets mess around” i was expecting making out, fondling, and then bj/sex......he pulled his pants down and went to bj fast

krnielk replied to your post: I might go fuck a guy from okcupid. not sure since...

GOOD LUCK LMAO I LITERALLY JUST STARTED LEARNING HOW TO USE TINDER SO THIS IS BIG MOOD