Simon Spier

If my love were a desert, you would see only sand.

If my love were a star—late at night, only light.

And if my love could grow wings,

I’d be soaring in flight."

I actually have gone the first two (believe me or not, I actually day dreamed about my first love this day and it feels creepy now I saw this somewhere).

I tried my best not to look at you.

I knew those eyes will bury deep into my mind and will turn my heart into stone.

I knew that one glance and I'll never be able to think straight.

It took all of my strength not to give in to the temptation. Your voice lured me, and I thought I only have to look out your eyes. The slither of your steps made me aware of every inch of you, but I still couldn't look.

What is the difference, having a heart as heavy as stone without observing your beauty, and my turning to stone with one look at you?

Would it be worth it to sacrifice a lifetime of heartache for that eyes I know I fell in love with?

I gave in, after a long fight. I always know my heart will prevail, my mind never listens. Armors were thrown, swords clang to the ground. The sound of surrender vibrated the whole place, and not one noticed.

I got to see the deepness of those hazel brown eyes. I got my ears to devote to your voice when you sang. I got to remember the feeling I buried all this time; the heart skips a beat, over and over, until it stops beating.

Slowly it crept, cracking inch by inch. I chose this, and there was no turning back.

You then again created your masterpiece; adding another to your collection of broken hearts. You knew this, and I knew it too. But I I was not strong enough, neither was you.

You didn't choose this. Your beauty was a gift, and every one of us who dared to glance at it knew the consequences.

But regrets were none to some of us.

Petrified, I stood there as you walked away. My eyes were fixed on you, and only you. And you had not gave a single thought about me. But I keep staring. You gave me something no one else could ever, and that's enough for me.

Wow, a world without darkness. How beautiful was that?"

I'll never get over you.

No matter how much I said I'll move on, how much I tried to move on, how hard I kept myself from thinking about you, I know I'll never will be able to.

One look at you, one glance you made at my direction, just one word I heard coming from your mouth, my mind stops whatever I'm thinking to prioritize your eyes, your voice, you.

I only told you what I want, and that's for you to decline me. I never told you what I feel. I never even showed how much you mean to me, how much you affect me. I know I never stood a chance, not even a little. You're way out of my league. But I live in regret, that maybe if I poured whatever I feel about you, you'll consider, or maybe you'll help me get over you.

Now I said what I said, and you said what I wanted you to say, and talking about it is too long that maybe you assumed I moved on, I'm left hanging. I told myself that maybe time will help me ease this feeling, that working a lot will keep my mind from walking back to you. I even considered liking someone else.

But nobody will ever be like you. No amount of work will drown my screaming heart. No span of time will do the trick.

Seating next to you again after so long, even without us talking at all, that's when I know.

I'll never get over you.

I don't know what to do, but I'm sure of it. You'll always be that one person I fell in love with. Even if I told myself that maybe I'm just in love with the idea of you, I could never distinguish it from something real. You occupy a part of me I'll never be able to take back.

I just wish I could tell you. Things are different now, for you. We talked about stuffs, and I know we have different views for the future. You will stand firm, and I understand myself to know what I wanted, who I wanted.

And if you happen to read this, I just want you to remember that someone out there on the sideline will cheer for you. You have lighten someone's dark days. You cheered someone just by your presence. You made someone's heart to flutter by your singing. You didn't even know for a long time, but you helped someone as much as those who were around him.

I also wished someone out there will love you as much as I do, and you'll love that person all the same. You'll meet that person and you will sure feel the same way I feel for you, or maybe even better. One look at that person, one glance at your direction, and even one word will stop your mind from thinking anything. And it will be completely fine because that person will be for you. You will be happy and that's all I wanted.