Because it feels like

I’m nothing at all”

since I’ve been at my current job as RN Supervisor.

Starting next month I will officially be carrying the title of Assistant Director of Nursing (ADON)

😱

it’s only been a year and I’ve already been promoted to managerial position

All that hard work I’ve invested and it’s paid off

I’m finally getting back into a happy place again in my mind.

I felt like I wasted 2018 tending to other people’s needs, neglecting myself, and spiraling down into depression. I don’t know who I was and I spent my time hating myself for quite some time. I was continuing to fall yet I felt powerless to do anything for myself. I was slowly being destroyed while I just stood there watching and did nothing.

These past few months I was finally able to genuinely feel happiness in myself and it wasn’t forced. I’m starting to be able to look in the mirror and recognize myself again. I’m thankful for the people around me and giving me such positive vibes. I actually feel like I’m alive and living.

I don’t owe myself to anybody in this world and I want to keep continuing doing things for myself. I absorbed too much of others feelings and carried their emotional weight that I got dragged down. Over time I realized some things are meant to be kept in the past and not forced into my future.