Imagine youâre Nicky Hemmick.
You just became the guardian of two teenagers who have never been in a stable situation in their lives, despite the fact that youâre just barely out of your teens yourself. Theyâre both incredibly indifferent to you and donât seem to realize the sacrifices you have to make everyday to give them a semblance of a home. But, honestly, you donât care about that. You donât care because they need you- they need the stability and support you can and will offer- whether theyâre grateful or not. You have vowed to always be there for them, unconditionally- something you never had growing up the way you did.
One of the twins acknowledges you (in subtle ways, at the very least) but the other downright refuses to interact. Heâs cold and distant and when you try to reach out to him, he lashes out. You try so hard to not take it personally, but it hurts. You see him make deals with people- deals to protect them, deals to keep them in his life- but he never even bothers with you. You assume he must not give a shit whether youâre there or not. Not for the first time, you question if youâre even helping. Maybe youâre making things worse. You donât know- youâve never been in this situation before.
And then you and your cousins are at a club. Youâre at a club and some homophobic assholes try to attack you and, oh- this is familiar. Because youâve been resented and bullied and hated for who you love your entire life.
But this is different, you quickly realize, because theyâre drunk and angry and at least twice as big as you. You brace yourself for the inevitable, knowing your escape routes have been cut off. But the blows donât come. Before they can reach you, you look up to see your cousin- the kid you practically adopted, the one who never so much as acknowledges your existence- shield you from your would-be attackers.
He fights like he cares and you finally understand that what youâre doing must mean something. You think you might even finally understand why he never felt the need to make a deal with you. Because maybe, just maybe, despite every evidence to the contrary, youâve earned his trust.