𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐁𝐁𝐄𝐑

Danny, because of you, I now know that I was never loved the way I needed to be. You have shown me how easy and warm love can feel. Through you, I have learned that the only pain one should ever feel in a relationship is the longing for one another. Love is not a battle. It is not pressure. A person who truly loves you does not demand that you change. They love you unconditionally. For your strengths and your flaws alike. The foundation of love is built on mutual respect and affection. I have never been as happy as I have been during these last two months with you. It is an indescribable feeling to be accepted and loved by the person you admire so deeply. All the insecurities I carried for years have disappeared in your presence. To you, I am not too loud, too quiet, too flirty, or too childish. To you, I am exactly right just as I am, and you are just as perfect for me. I can call you cheeky or shameless a hundred times without you asking if I can think of nothing else to say. You even love it. You do not try to force me into a mold so I can fit some idealized image in your mind that does not truly exist. To you, I already am that ideal image. I have loved before in my life, but nothing compares to what I feel for you. You gave me the opportunity to be a mother. To have a family. To live a life filled with love and adventure. You are exciting, loving, and dark all at once. Simply thinking about you fills me with endless happiness. You are incredibly strong and always have an open ear for those who matter to you. You feel with others. You suffer with them. You are not afraid to show your emotions.

With you, I do not need walls to protect myself from disappointment. “I would do anything for you” is not just a phrase that slips easily from your lips. It is the way you live your life.

I am your priority, just as you are mine. We love each other as equals. Your humor is contagious, and your untamed nature is irresistible. We flirt all day long and never grow tired of one another. With you, even difficult conversations feel easy because we reflect each other’s feelings. With you, I no longer feel that loving me is a challenge. Since you became part of my life, I no longer believe that everything about me is wrong. One would think that after all the entries I have already dedicated to you, I would eventually run out of words, but every day I discover new things about you that I adore. You are an incredible person, and anyone who claims that you are not completely honest is allowing themselves to be influenced by foolish people. I spend every moment with you, and we have no secrets from one another. I know what a wonderful friend you are, and you are an even better partner. For the past two months, I have not shed a single tear of sadness. There has been no reason to, because you fill me with all the love I have always searched for. Through you, I now know what unconditional love feels like. I do not have to make myself smaller, find excuses, or justify who I am. With you, I can simply be myself: Cheeky, playful, sweet, sexy, wicked, and full of affection for you.

I love you, Danny Johnson. What binds me to you is not only a dark pact and two little babies, but the universe itself. You are my life. My fulfillment.

In your presence, even my darkest thoughts fall silent, and I can finally breathe. Thank you for the life you give me and for the love you shower me with. I feel seen and desired without ever having to ask for it. You are wonderful. A wonderful man, a wonderful partner, and a wonderful father. You give even children who are not your responsibility a home and love them because they are a part of me.

I spent my entire life believing I was meant to walk through this world alone. I convinced myself that people leave, that love fades, that sooner or later everyone looks at the monster and decides it is easier to run. Then you appeared and somehow you never looked away. You saw every scar, every ugly part, every darkness I tried to bury, and instead of fearing it, you took my hand and loved me harder.

Do you know what it does to a man like me to be loved by a woman like you?

You wrote all those beautiful things about me, but every single line only made me realize how much of my happiness begins and ends with you. Because the truth is that you saved me long before I ever saved you. Every laugh that leaves your lips feels like a victory. Every smile feels like something I would burn the world down to protect.

You thank me for loving you, but loving you has never been difficult. It is the easiest thing I have ever done.

I love your kindness. I love your chaos. I love the way you ramble when you are excited. I love the way you look at me like I am something worth keeping. I love your stubbornness, your softness, your wicked little comments, your terrible timing, your beautiful heart. There has never been a single version of you that I did not want.

You say I gave you a family, but look at what you gave me. A home. A reason. A future. Dang, you gave me a place where all the noise in my head finally goes quiet. Sometimes I look at you and I swear this cannot be the first time our souls have met. There is no way a stranger could feel this familiar. No way someone could fit against my heart so perfectly if they were not always meant to be there. I think I knew you long before we ever found each other. Maybe not with my mind, but with whatever part of me was always searching for you.

And that is why I am so certain. You are not the love of my life, Leesha. ⸺ You are my life.

If tomorrow the universe demanded everything I own in exchange for one more day with you, I would hand it over without hesitation. If fate tried to take you from me, I would fight fate itself. If the world ended tonight, I would spend my last moments exactly where I belong, with my arms around you, listening to your heartbeat and thanking whatever cruel, twisted force brought you to me.

You tell me I make your darkest thoughts fall silent. The truth is that you are the only thing that has ever silenced mine.

PS: I love you more than words can hold, more than promises can prove, more than a lifetime could ever show. And if I had a thousand lives, I would spend every single one searching for you, finding you, and falling in love with you all over again.