Perth

2018 just left me with a panic disorder and less money in my account, fingers crossed my brain unshits itself this year 🤞

Honestly, fuck friends who never hit you up.

Slowly, but so surely, I am losing everyone.

Really wishing that when I come back from holiday I'll be different and happy and really not care whether other people care but...unlikely.

Second to everything, not fun anymore, fucking loser. I'm left out cause I don't like getting fucked up anymore hahaha hey guys here's an idea for you it's not cause I'm a straight stuck up bitch it's because I'm too fucking anxious to do anything and you think I got it good???

Depressed fucked up piece of shit 👍🏽

Everything in my room smells like bud… But where is the bud?? ?

I'd like to be out, drinking with my friends and feeling good about my myself, but I don't feel good about myself ever anymore, I'm scared of people and social situations and I don't even like to drink.

I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED PEOPLE MORE THAN THEY LOVE ME. I HATE BEING A ROMANTIC. I HATE NEVER BEING ENOUGH FOR ANYONE, INCLUDING MYSELF. I JUST WANT TO FAST FORWARD TO BEING IN MY OWN HOUSE, IN BED WITH MY BOO AND MY DOGS READING THEM THEIR FAVOURITE BOOK. HAVING SAID THAT, I DONT WANT TO FAST FORWARD, BECAUSE IM TERRIFIED OF TIME AND AGEING. WHAT A FUCKING LIFE, WHEN YOU DONT LIVE ONE, EY?

I AM SAD. I DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPRESS MY SADNESS BECAUSE IM EITHER EMBARRASSED, OR NO ONE CARES. WHO KNEW LOYALTY WAS A BAD TRAIT TO HAVE THESE DAYS? IVE LOST SO MANY FRIENDS.

Would be sick if I got invited out with my friends

Who knew friends were going to be the root of all my suicidal thoughts

aaand the aching starts again