I need to have a better chill, I can’t make up for 4 years of time wasted in 9 months. It’s not a replacement, it’s a new expierence. I push myself because I expected everything this year & was given lies & a new start. & it’s a beautiful start & it’s everything, but it’s a new start. A new seed that needs to be watered to grow. You can’t just plant a seed & the next day expect a flower.

Finally on the final of the pages. I can’t wait until the chapter is complete & I can move on.

me: my mama said we can’t be friends anymore effective right now immediately 

I’m so lucky to be able to call you mine. I know I’m not perfect but when I’m with you I forget all my flaws because you make me feel special. I’m lucky to be able to be the one who can make you smile & laugh, because the lord knows how much I love to hear that precious sound & see that beautiful gift. I know I’m lucky when it’s late at night & I’m restless, that i get to watch the sight of you sleeping. I feel the luckiest when you lay on my lap & I get to rub your hair. Or when you put your arms around me to go to sleep & pull me close. Every day with you makes me feel so lucky. And I hope our luck never runs out baby. You’re a blessing & I’m happy I’m the one who gets to share these intimate moments with you. I love you TTH IV.

Tharaka P