vermouth & annihilation

still cannot get over the audacity it takes to adapt a book series about gay people and necromancy fully knowing youre gonna have to censor both the gay people and the necromancy. thats a wild call

you ever put on a song whose vibes seize you so suddenly and violently that when it’s over you feel like you were briefly possessed

Nothing more painful than when a kind stranger tells you about some random AI feature in a way that is clearly meant to be helpful and you have to choose between nodding along in despair or turning wokezilla 3000 on them

huge fan of the depth of a good purple but another area that draws me is definitely around aquamarine/turquoise/seafoam. you can not go wrong once the green starts getting just a tinge more blue. a gal could certainly do worse than to pull over there and stay a while

THERE IS A BOAT BY IVAN AIVAZOVSKY!!

hyperfixations are so scary like yeah this could be a month long thing or i might be thinking of it everyday seven months from now. no way to tell

the cql/mdzs jianghu is like. your grandfathers built a big old house and its been passed down for generations and youre caring for it now to pass it down to your children but theres black mold. its fucking riddled with black mold. the house needs to be fucking demolished honestly or at the very least heavily renovated to cut out all this fucking black mold or its going to collapse on you or your children or your grandchildren but this is your home and you live here, what are you meant to do, rent like all those normal people? and its your grandfathers house you cant take it down you cant destroy their lifes work they put into it all so you would have a house to live in. so you ignore the black mold. its just a pattern on the wallpaper. everyone ignores the black mold. you have guests over and they dont look at your black mold and when you go visit them in the homes their grandfathers built you dont look at their black mold. sometimes you can genuinely forget about the black mold. and then wei wuxian and nie mingjue both come over and immediately point at the big fucking ever-growing patch of black mold and say "hey dont you think you should get that dealt with?" and well theyre right but isnt that so rude? everyone knows we ignore the black mold.

also wwx is saying "imagine still living in all that mold lol couldnt be me" while living beneath an underpass and huffing industrial chemicals which definitely isnt any better and nmj is saying "why havent you removed the mold yet? deal with your mold or ill burn down the house" while living in an equally moldy house and also snorting lines of spores straight off the wall every morning

jgy does actually start renovating one of the rooms in his moldy old house once he inherits it. it collapses in on him and kills him.

sometimes i wonder if we have forgotten that sharing creative work is, fundamentally, a bid for human connection. like I'm not posting art or fic for 'engagement' i'm posting it looking for other sickos to play with! i'd be making it anyway for my own gratification because there's something wrong with me, i'm sharing it hoping we can have something wrong with us together <3

thinking about the daddy issues tournament that jiggy was in and how people who were for the person he was put against reblogged it like "but did this jin guangyao whoever KILL his dad???" and all the mdzs fans got to gleefully swarm in like You Are Not Ready To Hear What Jin Guangyao Did To His Fucking Dad. and when they said it the person running the poll was like jesus what the fuck i didn't know that