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plans in place... possibly if i ever get motivation to actually draw blehh

This is what Odysseus was listening too when he ate that lotus

anyways i saw spiderman today and he just like me for real. I didn't love the movie as much as i wanted but it was still good. Ive always somewhat related to spiderman my whole life but its so nice to see an adult peter parker thats basically the same age that i am. I wanted a bit more emotional drama with the characters but maybe its more realistic the way it was portrayed. Ive really been grappling with really being an adult and grown and what that means and how I act. I still feel like a teenager in so many ways. I dont feel truly independent with how i live with my dad or with how many people in my life treat me. I feel behind so many others in terms of knowledge of how the world works. Ive never made a doctors appointment, idk shit on how my insurance works. I just go through day by day forever scrolling on my phone and computer and I hate it. I hate it i hate i hate it. I have 4 library books just sitting that i havent even touched. I have so many friends that i leave ignored because Im too scared to say anything. I want to create art and make friends but working full time im so drained I just want to turn my brain off and not be perceived or perceive the world. What would spiderman think of me? would he tell me its all going to be all right? Would he encourage me to be better? what would my mom think, is she proud? I just need to grow up and I feel like theres signs telling me to. The new weezer single got announced today and the snippet they shared has the lyrics "I gotta grow up and be a real adult".

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