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Concert Details: Date:  November 23, 2024 Venue: Choctaw Grand Theater Location: Durant, Oklahoma Usually hubby let’s me pick the shows. When I saw that Hank Williams JR was coming, I thought well he’s up hubby’s alley and I don’t care about the shows I go see. I enjoy it no matter who it is. I told him to contact his host. She told him that she would try her hardest to hook us up because it…

Just when I thought I was lost, along came you!  To change my world around. You changed the way my mind worked. You’ve given me a reason to fight and put my heart and soul into our future.  Everything I will do is for you, For your best interest. I promise to you that I will love and protect you even after I am long gone. I will never leave you.  That is my promise to you!!!!! ©2013…

Concert Details: Date: July 5, 2024 Venue: Choctaw Grand Theater Location: Durant, Oklahoma When I found out that Brett Young was coming to Choctaw, I got excited. Even though I had only heard two songs by him, I knew I would enjoy the rest of his repertoire. I instantly told hubby to contact his host to see if she could get us tickets to the show. The day before the concert, she texted us…

There was a girl that had given up on love.She had resigned herself to never loving or being loved by anyone.Having a cynical view on men. There was a boy that had given up on love.Resigning himself to a deathly future. One day…this damaged girl and this broken boy met, putting each other back together… ©2018 Sheila Valerie Torres

I miss my grandma. Sometimes I’m sitting here and I think, I need to call her and then it hits me. She’s gone. I still can’t believe that she’s not here. I need to vent. G’et this out but the people that I need to talk to about it always turn it into all about themselves. To hell with my feelings. So I don’t even bother. I was telling Rob that maybe I should’ve gone up there for her funeral.…

No matter how many journals I have started, I can’t seem to keep up with them. But I have to keep one because it’s the only way I can truly vent. Taking care of everyone is taking its toll on me. I have a huge bald spot on top of my head. My body is retaliating. My quality of life has declined so much in the past years. I’m just trying to survive. Some days are ok but some days are so hard.

Got me a new iPad and a pencil to see how my digital life would go. So far I’m loving it. I have a whole digital planner and now a journal. I’ve tried so many forms of a journal and nothing seems to work. I need a place to talk about my feelings. Lately I’ve had too many. There’s been 4 deaths in my family in the past 2 years. My 9 year old is hitting puberty too soon too fast. She’s learning…

When I started dating Rob, he started taking me to the casino. Choctaw Casino and Resort in Durant, Oklahoma. One of the perks of being a member is that you can get complimentary concert tickets. When we found out that Reba was coming, I told him I would love to see her live. So he contacted his host and they hooked us up. Rob and I checked in to the hotel. I got all dolled up. We went down to…

There’s nothing much to say about this except it was awesome. Watching the moon cover the sun and watching it get night time dark at 1:45 in the afternoon was different. I felt a happiness. An excitement. I can’t believe that I was able to see this once in a lifetime event. I’m ecstatic!

Scientifically they say that repeating a task over and over, it becomes automatic. It becomes a routine. For many years I struggled with money. Not knowing how to manage my money. I would get my paychecks and pay my bills (which was half the hassle), and whatever was left over I would spend on unnecessary things. I couldn’t see a dollar in my account. When I should’ve been putting away some of…

Since my last post so much has happened. Even before the last post things were happening. My daughter’s father called Child protective services on me, accusing me that I was talking bad about him to my daughter. The CPS worker found that I wasn’t doing anything wrong. That it was my daughter’s choice not to talk to or see him. The case was closed shortly after. It still affected her. Every time…

As I have grown, I have started to see all the narcissistic characteristics in both my parents. This is why at a young age, I was glad they separated (later divorced). They were both the same at different levels. They were always at each other’s throats. Always fighting. Sometimes even physical. As both my sister and me were forced to leave home by our parents, we started seeing everything as it…

While I’ve been away, I have been dealing with a lot of emotional situations. Including losing an uncle to suicide and my grandmother almost a year later. Many phone calls with my parents that left me sad, angry, frustrated, among other feelings. I have some issues to work through. So I’ve decided to hide my identity and use my blog to heal myself. Hiding so that my parents don’t know it’s me.…

It’s taken me so long to write this concert experience because I have been trying (trying being the keyword) to write more of Where Do We Go From Here. Working on My Heart Beats For edit collections. Working and being a mom. And on top of that my 2 year old decided to use my laptop as a stepping stone. Cracking my screen to irreplaceable. So any little work I’ve been doing has been on my iPad and…

“You know something Nacho? Today I woke with an urge to do something crazy.” Nacho lifted his head and gave me a puzzled look. “I’m going to dye my hair.” Nacho ran up to me and tugged on my pant leg. “I know it’s a crazy idea but I need a change so bad.” I decided to get dressed, I had a meeting with the boys. We are gearing up for the Vegas Residency. I got in my car and got to the…

Sometimes when the world is on my shoulders, I like to remind myself of one thing that I’m proud of. When I think about that, I can get through the dark cloud over me at that moment. Aside from my daughter, one thing I am proud of is my curiosity and respect for other cultures. I myself am 100% Puerto Rican. With that comes a colorful culture. I love it. I also find myself loving dances, food,…