Sheena Gaskell

Have you met my sister?

Have you met my sister? Good. She’s a beautiful human being.

I want a room designed for me.

I want a room Designed for me. Specifically me.  A room aware of my dimentions. A room aware of my height, My heart. My forever love… Permeating … from my being… and emanating… into the cosmos. Like a subretinal tunnel… In-crested with gold… And lavender… Blossom.

I want days without you in them.

Save draftPreview(opens in a new tab)PublishAdd title I want days without you in them. I want days without you in them, so you can tell you about them after, and share my joy with you. I want to live this flowing life of creation. Period. I want to live life. On my path. Adjacent to…

I walked back,

hoping to start anew,

to spend more time with you.

Into a cage I fell,

your rage,

I know too well,

but this time,

we didn’t yell.

My dance with you is done.

The time has come.

Light falls to Earth

from the Sun.

My father,

I must bathe.

This dream… This type of dream I consider one of my “subconscious fear dreams”… atleast I hope it’s that type and not a prophecy dream.

I’m in a car parked in front of an apartment complex with the guy whom I’ve been seeing on and off for the past few years and his dog who is on my lap in the passenger seat. The time of day is fuzzy now, I’d say around 3pm.

My friend tells me that he has to go…

Last night I had 3 dreams.

  Dream 1:

I’m in a parked car at night around 9pm right in front of a store/restaurant with it’s bright lights illuminating the interior of the car. I am omni present in the dream, and my perspective/view/location within and around the car changes throughout the dream. There is a random very young boy, maybe 6 or 7 years old, sitting in the driver’s seat, he is the…

I’m walking into a two car garage mid-afternoon on a cloudy day. There are no cars in the garage. Across the garage there is a set of wooden stairs that lead to the house. As I’m walking towards the stairs, the door opens and an older women I was friends with ten years ago, but haven’t seem since b/c she moved away, is walking out of the house and down the stairs towards me. I’m so happy to see…

I’m in the lobby of a building with a wide glass door right in front of me. The late morning sun is streaming in. There is a reception desk to the left, and across from it a small group of people about 6 feet back from the desk against a wall on my right, a family perhaps, a few young-ish boys and a man who may have been their father. I feel I am in the lobby of a nursing home or a hospital of…

Vent: Once you realize someone was using and manipulating you… they can no longer fool you… and therefore it becomes impossible to communicate with them any more. Period. Since all they know how to do when real emotions arise is to manipulate more (to remain feeling in control and dominate) they will never make sense to you any more (since experiencing real emotions makes them vulnerable and they…

Transcending Jealousy via Love: PART 3

Transcending Jealousy via Love: PART 3

  (Note: This entry will have multiple parts due to the complexity and depth of the topic.)

  Once upon a time… I was dating a man whom I was in love with and whom I thought was falling in love with another women. My mind was making up all kinds of scenarios of fantastical steamy moments of the two of them, which I was missing out on.  I knew they were just…

Transcending Jealousy via Love: PART 2

Transcending Jealousy via Love PART 2

  First,

my enemy girlfriend (god I loved her).

ho’s before bros.

After her was the ballerina my high school sweetheart,

whom I moved 2 hours away to be with…

left me for.

I even sold my car, walked to work. Got two jobs, we love each other forever…

it just wasn’t meant to be.

The sorority girls, fuck that was fun.

The porn shop bitch who used to bring you…

a poem i wrote in 2013.

“It’s probably the option that you don’t think of, the one that you don’t imagine, the one that doesn’t enter your consciousness, the one in which you don’t expect.

or maybe it’s exactly what you think?

what do you do then?

do you embark on a journey of discovery or do you relive your past?

YOU have to the power to choose.

YOU have the power to create.

YOU create your…

Transcending Jealousy via Love: PART 1

Transcending Jealousy via Love: PART 1 

(Note: This entry will have multiple parts due to the complexity and depth of the topic.)

  I learned jealousy from the television when I was a very young child…

  “Why are those children on tv and not me?”

“What makes those children so special that they get to be on tv?”

“What do those children do/have that I don’t?”

“Why are those children more important…

Vent: It’s important to *know* that some people are sick… and are master manipulators to gain/keep dominance over others/situations that are out of their control. They will use all sorts of horrible deranged tactics to prevent themselves from being/feeling vulnerable in any way and avoid scary/sad realities. They will twist langueage, use trigger langueage, tell you how you think and/or feel.…

Here they could hide history,

chalk it up to a mystery,

for our kids to be…

cleansed.

Literally trickery,

continues poverty,

disguised as liberty…

and freedom and justice for all.

Fear the fall, build a wall,

our saviors…

own us all.

Cards: Fear Creates Boundaries

Fear creates boundaries.

When one has a fear, one sets a boundary to protect themselves from that fear.

If you are afraid of drowning you might set a boundary for yourself that you don’t go into the deep end of a pool but instead stay in shallow water where you feel comfortable and safe. However, if you always allow your fears to control your actions and you stay in that comfortable shallow…