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Registered Psychometrician AUGUST 2024

When I was younger, I would say I was one of the best students in our class. For a long time, I was holding up to expectations from me, and I learned to love it. From then on, I wanted to become someone special, someone big and admirable. I had a list of dreams before me that were just waiting to be accomplished. People had their dreams for me too.

I thought I knew where I wanted to go.

I thought I knew who I wanted to become.

And then, life suddenly hit me. It was never that way. We can only plan things in our head and end up in a completely different story we never thought of writing.

I honestly sometimes think of my life choices. "Is this worth it?" Or "Am I gonna be as special as who I dreamt to be?"

"Will I be able to make myself proud?"

I sometimes think of that. And don't get me wrong, I am trying my best to work on myself everyday. I am sure that I am learning things. But it just haunts me...the what ifs.

Adulting is hard. You realize life isn't as easy as you thought it would be. But I guess, we're all in this game. No backing out. If our plans don't work, may God redirect us to where we belong.

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And that's life—it has its share of both ups and downs, of triumphs and losses, and that's okay. Both are alright to have and to be experienced.

life surely is full of uncertainties.

i didn't know i waited for you

until you came.

i enjoyed the rain,

romanticized the storms.

i mistook isolation

for independence.

i fell in love with being alone.

until you made me feel

how it was like to have someone.

i realized the storms aren't that cold

when you have hands to hold.

the rain would be more comforting

if you aren't alone in your suffering.

but that feeling of being found

once again was buried to the ground.

it was short-lived.

i was lost again— alone again.

because i had to learn

how to love myself more

than how i loved the rain.

that strength is not just standing alone

but having the right people

to stand with against the storm.

if we're meant to meet again,

i would introduce to you

the version of me

who grew after the pain.