The Rain, the Park, and Other Things

Yesterday was my first real EMDR session, so I had to discuss my “trigger events” (aka the traumatic moments I want to work on). After I went through all of it, she paused and said “So what I’m hearing is that you’ve never felt good enough because from the time you were little every time you tried to express yourself or even just tried to exist you were shut down and either explicitly or implicitly told you were worthless” and I just

I had one session before this that was the “getting to know you” session where she introduced herself, explained the science behind EMDR, etc,. In that one she also asked for a run down of what I was working on, and after I told her the cliff notes about literally everything traumatic that has ever happened in my life, she sat there stunned for a second and then was like “… how did you manage to get where you are after all of that?”

Some bitch that I have blocked on everything just texted me… this is like the third person I’ve had blocked that somehow figured out a way around it

Me: Okay improv class somebody give me an occupation. :)

Some of you do not understand what it means that Dean was parentified. Because, no, it does not mean that Dean was a good parent. He wasn’t. Not because he wasn’t a good kid who did wonderful and selfless things for Sam, but because young kids cannot be good parents. Categorically. We even see this in the show! Sam asks Dean, politely, softly why they never talk about mom and Dean yells at him and towers over him threateningly before storming out, leaving Sam alone on christmas eve.