botella vacía :: Empty Bottle

Today I'll take one step

A step that I will keep

And will change everything

Especially this feeling

4 words “I want comfort food”... and she’s speaking with her very long time best friend. My atmosphere stopped for a moment and went on a slow motion, my heart pounds so heavy and asking my self, is this jealousy? My mind speaks up, “nope”, but why I felt this way? After few seconds, I can’t feel anything and I don’t mind it at all. My mind keeps on saying “ Listen, make yourself happy from now on, don’t put her as your center of your universe.” 

The day I dreamt of you, seems like my soul is longing for yours. Pain once again woke up and heart shattered to pieces.

Let me swim towards the path I chose, let me dance under the rain with the yellow dress and bag you gave. Let me be happy and free.

#WednesdayThoughts

“I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways Maybe it's all part of a plan Well, I'll just keep on making the same mistakes Hoping that you'll understand....” Early in the morning, lunch time, snack time and dinner. That song is everywhere!! and it drives me crazy how people are so in love to that song. I wonder about their each individual reasons. Anyways, need to go back in writing a love story for me to pass this subject!! (feeling cool while lifting the right side of my glasses).  It’s been days that I’m trying to plot a story but I don’t know where to start. I once consulted this to Llei but yeah, all he could do is to send me a link, and it will get me to a page where it says, G-O-O-G-L-E I-T, at first I got insulted. But later on I realized that this is so FUNNY!! and he got me! ahahaha. So I decided to watch episodes about love, hope, trust, and confidence. I realized so much things and learned a lot about reality, about people’s feelings.  I came to a conclusion that people are sensitive and very fragile, they are emotional but some choose not to be, and emptiness is the root of pain then goes with doubtness. It’s true that those who are warriors of love, they are superb, valor, and amazing seeing them rising from their descent. BLAH-BLAH-BLAH, so many saying, so many thoughts, and so many ideas. And still, no clue where to start.

Books, papers, pencils, drafts, yeah. Always in front of me.. HmmMMMmmm (raising my two hands in the air), looking up at the ceiling, thinking of ideas, this and that… waaahhh.. I think my mind will blow up… (Rolling eye balls).

But then, yeah… I have too, and I need to… and the thing that bothers me???? Is that… I don’t know exactly how to start, how to start writing this story about L-O-V-E.

Closing my pink notebook, I’m here at the library, what a surprise and looks like it wasn’t me… ding dong.. Ding… Mignonette (talking to myself), and excuse me, kindly pronounce it as ( minyonette ). My professor doesn’t know how hard to make this kind of story, especially a girl like me who doesn’t have any experience about L-O-V-E. When this stuff assigned to me , I accidentally dropped my pink pen with fluffy feather( faceplam ) ,my world crushed… and look at him with surprised. At that moment my jaw dropped, here’s the point I was expecting for a Fiction Story not a pure L-O-V-E story. I can’t even understand W-H-Y!!!?????. 

I think I have to eat more chocolates, better with raisin, nuts, and of course my favorite strawberry ice cream… Oh M.. hayss… all that I’m thinking is F-O-O-D at this moment. My tummy is growling and maybe my fat worms are starving to death. 

Heading to the cafe where I always hang out either alone or with my best friend Lleinad call him Lei instead, let me describe him, he is a tall guy with a color bronze hair, gray eyes, pointy nose then always wearing a big rounded eyeglasses with a checkered shirt. If that’s my best friend, well , expect what I am. Of course, I have curly and messy dark hair , brown eyes, not that tall, always wearing a skirt along with colored socks.  Yes, we’re geek and weird. That’s why in our vocabulary the word L-O-V-E is out of our league and needed to be out of my S-I-G-H-T.

I ordered a Cafe Mocha, as always, with a Croissant hmmm…heaven (my smile is up to my ears). And looks who’s here, my tail… my best friend and he has a new gadget. He sat besides me and placed the new gadget while his smirking, Mimi.(That’s what he’s calling me :) (“Mi, I have a new baby… this is Liam.. I stared at him…Lei, it’s just a gadget, you know that I’m not that fond of gadgets right? However, this is awesome having Best 2in1 Laptops. 

Then he just responded with a disappointed face reaction, always expect that to me, that’s the last line I threw to him. He just looked at me with a smile then. He understands what I mean, that’s why we clicked. After that, he saw one of my drafts, took and read it while I’m doing my best to get it (rolling eyeballs) .