Wolfsblood

I’ve been thinking for several weeks now about these past 11 years and 21movies. No joking, I’m 23, these movies have been half of my life. I’ve been growing with them. I can’t express what meant to me Infinity War, but I can express even less what Endgame meant to me.

That was the wrap up of 11 years of my life (even tho Far From Home is still part of the Phase 3 Endgame was the closure).

What I felt yesterday, all the emotions, the joy, the excitement, the pain, the nervousness, everything, it’s been building up since 2008 and it finally came out.

Unfortunately, even though I would like to be wrong, I kind of feel like there wont be another Infinity war saga at least for me. Not as intense and emotional at least.

This was, a one in a lifetime thing. What Marvel achieved here is one for the history books. Absolutely insane. What I felt yesterday in that cinema I’ve never felt it before. Never. And I highly doubt tha I will ever feel it again.

Nevertheless, it’s been an absolute delight, honour and experience being part of this journey and whatever happens in the future in the MCU will never erase these amazing memories.

I loved Endgame, I really did.

But I am gutted that Steve and Bucky didn’t get their ending. I never expected or probably even wanted Stucky as canon but Steve should never have left him alone. After all that, he left without a goodbye, and it even left like Sam got Bucky’s goodbye.

And yes I’m still keyed up about the last video h n n n g h

When Patton starts shutting Roman down - the whole “you represent honor” thing - Deceit seemed vaguely surprised. 

Then as Patton goes on, leading all the sides present (and THOMAS) through a “guilt trip” - something Roman mentions like it happens all the time. He literally spells out what he wants them to think and feel - especially when he tells Thomas what he, the host, should be feeling - and Deceit watched the whole thing follow through very closely, before he makes his move– 

After he knows who is in charge.

Patton led everyone through that whole conversation, and Deceit knew it. 

Deceit was watching Patton because he was trying to figure out why Thomas isn’t listening to Roman, (who, as Logan clearly isn’t, seeing as he’s constantly benched and belittled, is the only side with the ability to back up his “I’m the most important side here) and I realized the same thing, too. 

Patton is the boss.

Patton told Thomas that he (Thomas) wanted to go to the wedding, and we’ve seen him distract the other sides to shut them down, too. “I think we all need a little not talking time!” And we’ve seen he knows how to distract Thomas, as well - his host, who should be in charge of him. He’s not as dumb as he lets on (”Boy, you both act like you know everything, but you’re overlooking something so simple! … Where’s Anxiety?”) and he was the boss there. Everyone else was going to cow down to Patton before Deceit came into the picture, and Patton immediately got hostile with him. (Remember that casual adjusting-my-glasses-with-my-middle-finger thing?) 

Who really had control over the conversation? 

Who really wasn’t acting in Thomas’ best interest? 

Who really became rude and hostile as soon as his ideas were criticized?

Who really couldn’t handle a side he had no control over, and buckled under pressure when he had to defend his stance? 

Patton shut all the others down.

Patton admitted he wasn’t right at the end.

Patton did as much as he could to get Deceit kicked out.

Patton literally failed to prove his point - in a court of the law.

The whole thing just feels like two major forces colliding: 

Patton, the wild-card boss of the light sides, 

And Deceit, who keeps all the dark sides hidden from Thomas.

No wonder Patton doesn’t like Deceit: