revolving collection of hyperfixations

when i was a teenager it felt very revolutionary to be cruel to myself. like some kind of slow passive protest against how much everything hurt. i starved myself of sleep and food and tenderness because it felt right. it felt sharp and angry and radical and i wanted to be those things. adulthood is the realisation that the world is already working to cut into you well before you learn how to do it yourself. caring for yourself and others is the real protest

it's thousand yard stare summer

[Video Description: An ad with piano music over it all, showing an elderly woman in her home, knitting, when two younger men walk by her window, which catches her attention. She stares out her window at them as they kiss each other while walking, the old lady staring in disbelief. Cut to the old woman approaching a residence with a broom in hand, staring up at the second floor window where a small rainbow Pride flag is hanging. The old woman stares up at it and mutters "Ridiculo", before getting up on a ladder with her broom to remove the flag. Focus on the flag fluttering to the ground as church bells chime. The scene then cuts to the couple from before, approaching their home with grocery bags in hand before one stops and stares at the second floor, stopping his partner who then drops the groceries as he too stares up. It's then revealed that the small pride flag had been replaced with a gigantic, hand-knit pride flag. It then cuts back to the old woman's home, where a tin of rainbow-colored yarn sits on her table. The hands of the old woman are holding and fondly touching an old black and white photo of two young smiling women, leaning against each other. Cut to the old woman's face as she stares out with a look of happy pride on her face. At the end of the video, the name "Idealista" appears on screen, followed by "buon pride" along with a rainbow. End VD.]

One thing I loved from the most recent batch of tlovm episodes is that it confirms that the Briarwoods were not in fact goth before the necromancy and the vampirism. Delilah reanimated Sylas and then they both went “Oh shit, we’ve simply got to go get the aesthetic to match.” On their way out of town they had to stop by the tailor to get some new gothic horror chic outfits. They’re already going down the dark path, why not fully commit? You want necromancer and her vampire husband? Oh they will fucking serve necromancer and her vampire husband. They will put their whole pussies into necromancer and her vampire husband. They don’t even hide that they’re evil they fully broadcast it on purpose and love it the whole time. No hiding behind a facade, just full on long sweeping black dress and menacing tailcoat and gloves and haunted looking castle. Delilah’s favorite color used to be lavender but not any fucking more it’s black now baby. Sylas makes a point of extra good dental hygiene to make sure those fangs really pop. You might hate them, but you’ve got to admit they’ve got an impressive commitment to the lifestyle.

Being obsessed with Genshin Impact is fun because you never know if they're going to deliver an amazing payoff to that thing they're dropping crumbs about three years from now, if you're going to wait forever only for them to fumble it, or if they're going to completely forget about it.

imo you get the most out of engaging with media when you strike a balance between treating characters as people (reading interiority into their actions, considering the effect of various aspects of their identity, etc etc) and as vehicles for storytelling (what narrative purpose do they serve, how do their actions and personality function to convey the themes of the work, etc etc). because of course characters are literary devices but also there’s a reason we use literary devices written to embody realistic people in order to tell stories