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falling in love makes me want to eat

& actually its romantic and intimate to have someone in ur life who wants u to eat, who reminds u to eat, who treats u to snacks bc they want u to be happy and full way more than they would ever care about u keeping thin, i think wanting someone to take care of themselves and eat without shame or fear for their appearance is like the worlds closest thing to unconditional love

I try and I try and I try and it all amounts to nothing.

sometimes i’ll be going about my day and then i’ll remember that in spanish they call their partner/soulmate “mi media naranja” (my half-orange) and i have to just. sit for a second

Any time there's celebrations around me, it just makes me aware of how deeply detached from life I feel. Not because of what the celebrations represent or whatever, but the human aspect of it. It just really drives home that lifelong feeling i've had of never feeling like I belong here in any way??? Alone in a crowded room type of feeling even though I don't experience loneliness