nini

spontaneous walks or drives was everything for you and seungyoun. today was one of those times.

it just started when your boyfriend had started to open up to you, talking about his anxieties and how everything is just eating him up. it was rare to see him breaking down in front of you- yet he comforted you that nothing was your fault, and that he doesn't blame you for not knowing.

it was his choice not telling you, and now was also his choice of bringing it up to you on one of your free days.

"do you want to walk around?" the fact that those were your first words after his small talk, looking up to you with red eyes. he suddenly bursts to a sincere smile, wiping his eyes with the back of his palms.

"really?" he chuckles at you the first time you had suggested it. "it's two in the morning?" seungyoun just laughs at you, but the moment you dragged him out of the darkness of his house, he feels lighter than he had ever felt, the burden of not telling you his problems fading away as your hands intertwine with his to walk around.

it had been such a comfort for him that you just listened to him, and that you knew very well how to comfort him more- until it just became such a thing to the both of you.

"will you be able to drive?" you ask him, ironing your coat with your palm as you whipped your head to look at him.

"..why don't we walk?" he suggests, and you coolly nod your head to agree. "you ready?" he asks from the doorsill, waiting for you to finish.

you smile at him, hopping to him and clinging to his arm as you opened the door, the cold wind of the midnight welcoming you.

letting yourselves drown in the comfortable silence, you close your eyes as you let seungyoun hold you close and lead you anywhere, seeing yourselves walk to a bridge where han river was beautifully and calmly seen from above.

"y'know.." seungyoun starts, pulling you closer and tucking your intertwined hands in his coat's pocket. "people say i'm obssessed, but i've never loved somebody so much,"

his words make you stop breathing, staring right through his eyes.

"..you know that, right? that i love you?" seungyoun confirms, craning his neck as he looked at you fondly.

your lips curl to a smile, caressing his cheek with your free hand.

"i know," you whisper, but enough to travel to his ears and to his heart. "and i can just hope you know how much i love you too, and i'd do anything.. anything just to see you happy." your thumbs caress his soft skin, one that felt that you were burning- you didn't deserve seungyoun at all.

"yeah?" seungyoun chuckles, tugging at you arm. he engulfs you in an embrace, your arms finding its way inside his coat, heating it up as you rubbed his back. "anything?"

you hum in response, taking in his homely scent as you closed your eyes in relaxation. "even if i ask you to marry me?" seungyoun mumbles against the crook of your neck, and he senses you tense at the question.

he leans back to cup your cheeks, a soft smile plastered on his face. you look at him in awe, feeling your heart beat calmly.

it was one of the things your mother has said. it's not love if you feel butterflies in your stomach- it means you're nervous around him. it is love though, when at one point, those butterflies becomes calm, settling in your heart, making you feel safe. you felt safe. you felt at home. you felt.. love.

tears pooled in your eyes, and before they even drop, seungyoun had already wiped them away.

"y/n, i'm not pressuring you in anything, i didn't even bring a ring today. i just wanted to let you know, i just wanted to show you. you were there, always there whenever i'm happy or sad- you were someone i always leaned on to whenever i needed to. you are home."

seungyoun explains, his eyes betraying him as a few tears drop to your intertwined hands.

"whether we're by a car, on a bridge, on our own house, your house, my house, in a taxi, anywhere. big or small place, i don't care. it's about you. about us. about how we're both so grateful to have each other.. happy." seungyoun's voice cracks, and he holds his head high, looking at the starry night sky. "for now, only the stars are our witnesses to the love we're experiencing, because other people won't understand how i feel towards you,"

you let out a sob, pouting as you cried to his chest. seungyoun just chuckles at you, his hand continuously caressing your back to calm you down.

"youn.." you deeply sigh, looking up at him with your damp cheeks. "of course i'll marry you," you cry out, trying to hold your sobs. "i don't need any rings or dowry or whatever, i'll marry you. i'll marry you until my lifetimes run out, i'll marry you until my last life, i'll marry you in every life i have, i'll marry you- i'll choose you, i'll always choose you." you blabber.

and just like lullaby that put you to sleep, seungyoun's laughter rang in your ears as you enjoyed each other's warmth in embraces, swaying with the cold midnight wind.