The Little Things

The way you approached me makes me sick

Please, please don’t break me

I never wanted this

I need to shower. I need to get his essence off my body.

Why am I so sad?

I’ll never walk away from him like I did today

I’ll never find someone who could love me because I’m unloveable.

If I killed myself, no one would notice.

I just want to die

Why am I always so sad

I can’t wait to kill myself.

I’ve never felt like such an outsider

I wish he would stop pretending he cared and let himself care

I’m the loneliest I’ve ever been.

Remember when you said it made you so happy I greeted you with a kiss? Remember when I was nervous to tell our friends and you said who cares and kissed me? I miss how your lips felt on mine. I miss the way you caressed my back with your hand when I stood next to you. I miss being yours.