I love having the overwhelming insecurity that I'm nobody's favorite and why should people like the things I do when apparently they do it so much better and what's the point of me even trying when someone else gets loved so easily and I know its not your fault I can't control who your favorite it but gosh nobody seems to notice when the things I do and I create are left out so ofc I'm gonna be upset no I don't want you to do more stuff for me I don't want your fucking pity appreciation sorry I want somebody to enjoy my creations the most without me forcing them too why can't people just like what I do or like what I make no I'm not talking about you you'll like what I do no matter what I could lick a piece of paper and you'd call it the best drawing ever I want someone who naturally favors what I do without feeling the obligation to or being biased I'm so fucking selfish why can't I just be happy for the people who get favored over me?












